Hi all,
This morning the judge granted me the TRO without any questions. And we had the Sheriff to serve him and had him evacuated from our apartment.
Like I said before, he is homeless now, on the street. Without money or a job. In the streets because of me. And I can’t stop crying because we spent 10 years together. And I know he has been trying to work on his mental health issues. But he still does this things.
He was homeless ones for a bit and was awful, just family abandoned him and now I feel like this is all my fault.
He reached out immediately, apologizing, saying I am the love of his life and he wants to be better and provide for me. He will get a job and go to therapy. That his pills for depression and anxiety make him irritated and that’s why he acts like that, it’s not that what he wants. He said he will even go back home. He just doesn’t have any money.
I can help him with a ticket there and ship out all his things. But I know he is not going to be happy staying here. I also have a list of shelters and food bank he can go, I want to sent out to him. But with the no contact, don’t know if I should. I know for sure he does not have even a $1 in his bank account.
This is so hard, I feel like I ruined his life. Like I threw away 10 years of relationships. Like I am the one who couldn’t help him through his mental health issues and help him be better.
I feel so lost. Being free is not a win.