So I failed two last classes fall semester and I had to retake it winter semester and I was in academic probation. During that time I had trouble with student funding and I because of the shame of me failing fall semester I discouraged to do work, and now I am here, I emailed my professor to ask for extra time even though summer semester starts next week, I can't even enroll in summer semester classes because my I tried to do this academic probation stuff for student funding all by myself and I couldn't get one form in on time because my parents didn't tell me that the student funding office sent me mail that I got ONE DOCUMENT WRONG and better yet I didn't want my parents to know.
I feel like selfish person, nah I am and a lazy person and I am that too.
I ruined everything for myself because of what? Fear.
I should have used that shame to do my fucking work.
Now I can't even enroll in anything and Im stuck and trapped and fucking hate myself.
God what is genuinely wrong with me all of this because I was selfish and stupid.