My boyfriend and I broke up last night. IHOP chocolate chip pancake combo sent by my best friend!
We'd been having problems for a hot minute (more like a year, after we briefly broke up and tried to give it another shot). We both had resentment. I'm in school and he was covering the household bills, though I do have some savings. He'd always had low testosterone, and in the beginning, I was always horny and just had to go without. The sex we did have was never good, and he wasn't generous in bed. Apparently, at some point, his sex drive got a boost, and he went off on me last night for "never giving him sexual favors when he pays for most things, because at least if you see a prostitute, you pay for something and get it." I told him I had no idea he even wanted that. I have zero issue with transactional relationships, but like...I have to know we're playing by those rules? I told him he should have asked, and he said that asking for sex is "weird" and that I should just want to have sex with him. I told him that normal people open their mouths and communicate they want some, like I used to before I started losing attraction to him. Then he said that sex was the one thing I could have brought to the table, and I wasn't doing that. He gave me a 30-day notice and will be moving out. I've been so excited about school and a new career, and while I'm nervous about the time when I finally live in a quiet house with no farting man and coming home to no one, I would be lying if I said I hadn't been fantasizing about that exact thing for a while. I'd already been applying for jobs, but this market is ass. Still, I'm hopeful and excited! I've gotten through worse and am such a different person than I was a year ago when we split. Back then, I was DEVASTATED. Now, my biggest concern is doing an amazing job on my assignments over the weekend and coming back to flex on everyone on Monday. I finally love myself more than him and will do what I need to do to be self-sufficient without him.
Also, I'm sorry for making this post man-centered! I normally like to post about awesome school accomplishments and the like, but this is a big change, so here we are, lol.
Chocolate chip buttermilk pancakes, scrambled eggs, hash browns, and sausage that my amazing best friend had delivered. Not pictured: Hot chocolate. 🤍