Ready to breakup or just hypomanic...
TLDR: Am I hypomanic or ready to break up?
Hi!
I have been dealing with some feelings as of late. I have been in a relationship for several years and we have lived together for about two. But I have started to question the relationship and I'm thinking about ending it.
The problem is that I have been here before. We did break up twice a few years back before I got diagnosed. She did take me back and we have been steady since. I have, however, for a few months now had thoughts about breaking up again.
We have talked around (but not directly about) the subject . I have raised my concern but she did not agree at all and thought that the relationship was almost stronger than ever. So I know that ending it would "destroy" her. Which I don't want, since I still love her even though I'm questioning if I'm in love with her.
The issue with it all is that I can now see that I was hypomanic when we broke up those other times. Which makes me question everything; am I ready to end it or am I just hypomanic again? How do I know and how long should I feel like this to be certain?