I have a 14 year old nonverbal autistic son. At one point at around 2-3 he seemed so normal. Then 1st,2nd,3rd grade happened and so on and no talking. No sense of danger,not interested in friends,not interested in what normal kids are interested in. And lately its gotten to me pretty bad. I feel very guilty for feeling that way. He's very sweet,his meltdowns are a minimum etc. But I had a very bad childhood,not the greatest life,I've always struggled and I'm going to be 50 soon and i feel like ill never get to live a life just for myself. When I die,i don't know what will happen with him. I have 2 other kids that moved out last year,but i feel they wouldn't be able to help with him even in my death. I dont have family. I've always kinda been just been by myself. So,i get sad alot about it. I dont understand why he couldn't be more normal to atleast be able to function when im no longer here. I just want him to talk to me. To Say mom,can we go to the movies. Mom,can i have this game,mom can i go to my friends house etc. I just wanted him to have a better quality of life. Again,i feel guilty for feeling this,but i don't know how to be this late in my life. Does Anyone else go thru this?
u/Donkey-Icy
I have a 14 year old nonverbal autistic son. At one point at around 2-3 he seemed so normal. Then 1st,2nd,3rd grade happened and so on and no talking. No sense of danger,not interested in friends,not interested in what normal kids are interested in. And lately its gotten to me pretty bad. I feel very guilty for feeling that way. He's very sweet,his meltdowns are a minimum etc. But I had a very bad childhood,not the greatest life,I've always struggled and I'm going to be 50 soon and i feel like ill never get to live a life just for myself. When I die,i don't know what will happen with him. I have 2 other kids that moved out last year,but i feel they wouldn't be able to help with him even in my death. I dont have family. I've always kinda been just been by myself. So,i get sad alot about it. I dont understand why he couldn't be more normal to atleast be able to function when im no longer here. I just want him to talk to me. To Say mom,can we go to the movies. Mom,can i have this game,mom can i go to my friends house etc. I just wanted him to have a better quality of life. Again,i feel guilty for feeling this,but i don't know how to be this late in my life. Does Anyone else go thru this?