I just had a tough conversation with my father, we were both drunk and started to talk about religious feelings. I was joking about the fact that I'm an atheist because either way I'm going to hell(I'm a FtM Transgender who loves women btw). And he started being all " Be careful to not offend religious feelings (real crime in my country) as I believe in god." I honestly can't tell you about the whole conversation without bias but at some reallpoint he said something like "I respect you, so I'll tell you straight: I'm willing to call you by the boy name n all, even thought it's not normal" and then I shut down...
I really don't remember anything outside of him saing "it's not normal" and me going "maybe we shouldn't talk" but now I'm in the forest to collect my thoughts and starting to think "I do have it better than most trans teens. I at least been called by boy name(not the name I go by bit whatever). By he/him pronounces. I'm really at the loss here. Am I being an ungrateful brat or am I rightfully sad. Because as soon as "it's not normal " was voiced, the first though that came to my mind was "well, here goes my father"
It actually gotten dark in the forest as I type, so please tell me straight, am I overreacting?