My baby was born 3 weeks early, perfectly healthy and happy. I wasn't set on breastfeeding but because of my tendency to procrastinate and her early arrival, I had not really looked into any form of feeding. My milk came in without issue, she latched easily, and she had no problem gaining weight. I fell in love with breastfeeding, and have cherished it.
We switched birth control from VCF which I paid for out of pocket, to PHEXXI which insurance covers, and suddenly I've found myself pregnant again. My supply is clearly dropping. I still produce milk, but I usually pump one bottle a day and that amount has dropped nearly 50%. My baby is so chill but she seems thirsty, I found her wrestling with her sippy cup on her play mat earlier today, she has never been interested in it before. I feel so sad that she might be suffering.
I plan to go out and buy some Kedamil tomorrow, and also call her pediatrician. I don't have my fist prenatal appointment until the beginning of June. I just feel kind of lost and alone, and now I have this whole new thing I have to learn. It makes me sad that my body stopped making enough milk for my daughter, and I feel overwhelmed at having to learn and do something new while I am already feeling so sick and stressed.
When I first found out about my pregnancy, I was shocked and scared, but loved the idea of breastfeeding both my newborn and my daughter simultaneously. Now I feel... sad.
This is mainly a vent but if you're reading this and it resonates in any way, I'd love to hear anything positive or any advice about formula, combo feeding, two under two, pregnancy while being a mother, etc. My husband works 12 hr shifts 7 days a week March-June so I am alone all day every day with my baby, and feeing very isolated.