is this derealization?
hey so i had spoken to my therapist about this a little while ago and plan to bring it up again next time i see her! i just wanted you guys’ thoughts.
f19 btw! so i always feel a little drunk… or maybe even like i’m on laughing gas. in fact, the first time i got drunk, i was so relieved that i finally had something to compare to the weird feeling in my head lol.
i’ll try to explain it a little more. everything is slightly muted. it’s like i’m looking through a headset. or like i’m zoning out and this is the daydream. but NOT because I don’t think me/my surroundings aren’t real. it just literally feels like what you a daydream feels like. like my vision isnt hazy, but it has the feeling of haziness…? does that make sense (no..) i also am not very aware of my surroundings, which is getting increasingly worse and very worrying as i’m starting to drive more and being aware of my surroundings is very critical on the road.
the main thing i see with DP/DR though, is that the people experiencing it don’t feel real. or are questioning reality or what i’m experiencing. i’m not questioning that at all. maybe it’s cause i’ve gotten used to the feeling? or because it’s something unrelated.
the closest i’ve gotten to that would be like when i have to heavily rely on my dad to tell me if (insert object) is actually in front of me because i don’t trust myself to perceive my surroundings.
it first started when i had a really bad anxiety attack in april of 2021. i had convinced myself i was having a heart attack and went to the ER. (i was a big hypochondriac and went on to go to the ER for what i thought was a brain tumor and aneurysm. i’m fine now!) anyways, ever since then i’ve had this weird feeling in my head. i will say that at first it was almost a physical feeling- like i was underwater or my brain was full of air. now it’s kinda merged into what it is now. sorry i am not great at explaining it. to be fair, i don’t totally know what i’m feeling.
neurological issues have been ruled out!