u/Dizzy_Blueberry8466

Hi!

I know this a common procedure that a lot of women deal with. I didn't have a great experience with my colposcopy and they also used local anesthesia. They took 5 samples and I felt every one. It was horrific. I also have a history of trauma so maybe that didn't help.

When my gyno saw the results they wanted to schedule me immeaditly. They typically are booked months out but I guess my results concerned them. I saw them Monday, they want me back on Friday for the LEEP.

I feel like I'd be more comfortable having my husband there, and they want me to take valium and oxy. So I definitely need a ride. At first my husband said he would be there (as long as I scheduled it for a time where he didn't have to take off work).

He said he couldn't be there Friday and that he was actually going out of town this weekend. My gyno had mentioned doing an outpatient surgery, but said I could expect to be there for 24 hours after. When I told my hisband this he said "wow. That makes me really sad that you'll be all alone".

I know this trip means a lot to him, but it isn't for a big event. He just goes out of town every weekend to go rock climbing. I know he won't be here the last weekend of may or all of June. I also work two jobs and go to school full time so my schedule has also been interrupted by this.

I was able to reschedule the procedure to Monday but he said he would only be willing to drop me off and I'd have to find a way back. It's not my fault the gyno wanted me in urgently and even that scares me. Is it wrong of me to feel like I'm not being supported?

I had an abnormal pap which lead to an ultrasound, two cervical biopsies (colposcopy), and a LEEP procedure. I have a history of trauma, and all of these procedures have brought severe pain with minimal pain medication (like an advil). Due to this, and since it concerns my fertility and pelvic health, having his support as my partner and future father of my children would be nice.

He always says he will go but has never requested off for it. Stating that in purposefully scheduling at times where he would have to ask off work. I'm just taking the best option that the hospital gives me because I also work two full time jobs and go to school full time. He only works one job and comes from family with money, so that's never been a concern for him.

However we don't share things financially since he wants to keep everything seperate.

I'm having another procedure soon but he is planning to go on a golfing trip that weekend is mad that I asked him to stay.

Typically these procedures have quick recovery, but they are very traumatizing for me and the pain has been unreal.

Is it wrong for me to be hurt that he won't be there? This last procedure will determine if I have invasive or nonivasice cervical cancer. So it's also heavy emotionally.

I feel like I'm not a priority. And it hurts because it feels like he's not concerned about my health or our future.