I 24M met her 20F about a month ago . She already knew me, but I didn’t know her before. We started talking, and after a few days, I confessed that I liked her. She said yes because she had liked me for a long time I just didn’t know that.
But from the day I confessed, I started feeling a lot of stress and anxiety. I couldn’t study at all. I’m in my final year of medical school, and I need to study 10-12 hours a day to keep up with my academics. I’m also on medication for anxiety and depression.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. For years I wanted to be loved but when I finally received it I couldn’t handle it. I ended up losing her.
She really loved me. She was kind, understanding, and supportive. I gave her hope that I would manage things, but I couldn’t. She was even ready to talk only once or twice a week and wait for me but I still couldn’t handle the anxiety it was killing me from inside.
I feel terrible because she accepted me the way I am, even when I don’t feel confident about myself. She understood me and tried to support me, but I was the one who hurt her and decided to break up. Initially she resisted but at the end she understood my situation.
I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself for this.
Now I'm in regret That no one will ever accept me and love like her but I am sure If I go back now I'll ruin my career if same things happens to me again........
tl;dr And I can't afford the therapy right now without her I can manage my anxiety but with her I'm in a constant stress and worry of future....What should I do I'm also in a regret of losing her.....