u/Distinct-Bill-39

Salam,

I dreamed of marrying someday, having kids, a house, a nice family.

But then I became older and the fear of becoming a wife got stronger. I had bad experiences with men. First, men that just used me and never had good intentions. And then I met someone serious and he broke my heart…

I learned how to heal myself, how to make a life for myself, bonded with my family more.
Now all I build up, I can’t leave it anymore.
I can’t imagine myself living with a man, a man switching up on me, him losing feelings and we stuck together, having children I can’t care for.

I know it’s just a trauma response but it’s stuck in my head now. It’s also trust issues but only towards men. Every single man I trusted broke my heart….