I hate music now
I can’t stand it. Songs from my parents’ era reminds me of them. Songs from my childhood reminds of a time when they were alive, screaming at me that they’ll never breathe again and that time has passed and is long gone. Songs from modern day feel sad and melancholic even if it’s just the melodies and not the actual subject or they feel too giddy and unrealistic, like an idiot who hasn’t dealt with any real problems in life. I can’t stand music anymore. It’s too much. It’s an assault on my senses. I don’t want to be flooded with memories and sadness because it’s all a reminder of what I can’t have anymore and the hole that is the loss of them in my life. People wonder why I don’t like music- even the happy songs are too freaking much for me. I don’t even want to date a music lover because it just pisses me off to hear it all the time.