I restricted my emotional abuser, and I am not guilty about it.
For context, I’m already 24, pero until now I’ve been experiencing abuse more times than I can count. I’m a child of a widow, and sobrang hirap ng buhay namin after mawala yung papa ko because of COVID. If you think my mom is the one abusing me, hindi siya. My emotional abuser is my aunt. She’s childless, and honestly, if umulan man ng narcissism at pagiging abusive, parang naligo talaga siya doon.
Growing up, hindi ako suwail na bata. I follow rules and I was raised well by my dad. He was amazing, to be honest. Pero simula nung nawala siya, my aunt has been constantly messaging me. As in nonstop, draining, manipulative, and emotionally exhausting.
Recently, napuno na talaga ako. I got tired of her constant pangangaral, her abusive behavior, and pagiging narcissistic niya, not just to me but pati sa mga kapatid ko. She even lectures them about things na wala namang sense in real life. I don’t want my mom to intervene kasi she’s already sick and under strict medication. So I decided to restrict her on Messenger. Nakikita ko messages niya, pero I don’t reply anymore, and I stopped answering her calls.
For the first time, I felt free, and honestly, sobrang therapeutic niya. Parang nanalo ako sa lotto sa feeling ng pagiging malaya. Right now, wala akong planong makipag communicate sa kanya. And kapag mas okay na ako mentally and mas stable na to deal with people, I’m planning to see a psychiatrist kasi I know I really need help.