I genuinely thought I got better after I completely and magically stop picking at my fingers. But in the last 2-3 years I’ve started picking at my feet. At first, it was just at my sole, and the ‘session’ would only last like 5 min at max, but now I’ve started ripping through my whole feet until there’s nothing left. I try to let it heal because I wanna wear sandals and heels but every time I feel or see even a little flap I’ll go at it again. I’ve gotten disgusted at myself because recently I’ve noticed a bad odor coming off of my feet. I’m very self conscious of my self so this just made me feel even more terrible.
I haven’t been diagnosed with the common disorder associated with this, like anxiety, adhd, or ocd. For me, I sometimes do it unconsciously, out of habit, or because I get a sense of pleasure from it. I’ve tried to research and worked on controlling myself but I still come back to it after a week. Here’s what I’ve tried so far: cutting my nails, fidget toys, and wearing socks.