I’m taking 25mg of Zoloft and obviously started taking it because I have anxiety but the anxiety spikes I’m feeling feel more intense than anything I’ve experienced before. I feel like most of my life my anxiety has felt almost like a numbness with constant low grade moments and feelings of anxiety but has felt kind of muted, it’s like it’s just been always there running in the background.
Since I started Zoloft, I feel like the anxiety has become much more visceral and feeling regret and shame for the ways I haven’t fully shown up in my life, especially in relationships, up until this point. Feeling regret and pain for the friendships that have slowly faded over the years likely because of my inability to fully be present because of my anxiety.
I also have an 18 month old and I want to be the best mom and partner possible which is the main reason why I finally started it after 6 months of having the prescription sitting in my cabinet. As I’m doing my best to show up in the best way I can, I’m also intensely feeling the extreme anxiety of how I could have shown up better in all areas of my life up until this point.
Had anyone else experienced these extremes? I’ve been reading so much about how it will likely take a couple more weeks to take full effect but looking for support or encouragement of anyone who has experienced a similar process while starting it.