Hey bros, I need to vent a bit.
I'm a total top, but I’m on the slimmer/smaller side.
I don't look like a typical "dom daddy" or a gym rat, but I know what I’m doing in bed.
The problemis, it fels like most guys I meet only care about what’s between my legs and my performance.
Every time I try to show some vulnerability or just want to be held after a round, I can literally feel the vibe die down, It’s like aas soon as I stop being the aggressive top, they lose interest. Like, I’m a human being with feelings too, notr just a tool for your O.
Does being a Top mean I always have to be the "strong one"? I'm tired of the hookup culture where I’m expected to perform, finish, and then act like a cold robot. Especially as a slim top, I feel like I have to "prove" my masculinity even more, and it’s exhausting.
Am I the only one feeling this way? I just want a guy who wants me, not just my top energy.