Its been 4 months since i and my ex breakup.
Tomorrow is the fifth months.
I still remember all the good memories like it was a highlight stories.
I also remember the bad one but somehow i cant hate her anymore?
I felt like,i alrdy forgave her..but why?
She wanted me to express my feelings.
Dont hold it up.
When i do,i was called the princess.
I used to go to her family house even when at 4am just because she crave for some sweet drinks.
I buy for her,i sent to her.
I kiss her.
I used to accident so much cuz of her.
Luckily I survived.
But somehow when im with her.
I had a will to live,i had a future i dream off.
My fam died long time ago so thats why i lost the reason to live in the first place.
I was in flight mode,then i found her.
Shes the reason for me to live.
When we breakup, she's also the reason i feel in the deepest hole i can be.
But then i stand up.
I start working again,
I use the rage as a fuel.
I use the rage as a fucking i want to show her,i want to do the sweetest revenge i can and then i realized after a months of working.
Who am i kidding?
Why her?
Why still her?
Am i wanna see her again?no.
I do love her,but i knew deepdown I can't be with her
It only bring up the worst in me.
So now..i dont who should i work for,
Why i should i work for.
Why do i need to live ?
Do anybody will ever care for me?
Oh its not the rage fuel for what she did to me.
What i really wanted was
Her saying sorry,for everything.
Just a simple sorry.
I dont want her to bring up all the things.
Just a one word of "im sorry"
Thats it.
But i know she wont..