u/Differ3

I am not trying to say my experience is worse than anyone else’s but I feel like everyday I hate myself for what happened. I tried everything I could to prevent myself from having an orgasm and in the end I couldn’t stop it and I think made it more intense by trying to stop it. I don’t know but it was a humiliating and embarrassing situation and I feel like a piece was stolen from me. Would really appreciate any kind words or advice

I will start off by saying I am thankful free of this situation right now. But for the last few months since it ended I have been struggling with triggers causing anxiety attacks. I realize that it’s because I haven’t worked through any of my trauma. I really want to get better but feel completely lost on how to get started and what will work for me. If anyone has any advice I would really appreciate it. I am willing to try anything at this point