I have very few friends irl, and recently I met a couple people on an app. We hung out and it was really nice, and I lived off of that happiness for the rest of the day and into the next morning. Then I got home from work, laid in bed, and remembered no one else was there I could talk to. My mood started dropping by the minute and I started having an emotional breakdown, realizing that day was the first time I actually hung out with anyone in about seven years
I want to make friends, I want people to do stuff with, but I’m so socially awkward and introverted that it’s really difficult to talk to people. I try, but I get really bad anxiety and struggle to speak. It doesn’t help that I have RBF either, so a lot of people assume I’m upset or mean
Every day is the same. Wake up, work, shower, watch YouTube by myself, cook, eat by myself, lay in bed by myself. I have gotten used to it, but experiencing an actual day out with people made me realize that this is my normal, and I absolutely hate it