u/DevonianEraWitch

It sucks so bad. I want to fight for us but he doesn't. I want him back. I feel like he's finally doing all the good things and so am I why can't we do them together? I don't want to date anyone else. We've been sleeping together again. Two kids. He had a brain injury and struggled to communicate his feelings even before but it got worse after. He would act rude/ignore me, and we fought a bunch. He'd get mad about things like food not being ready when he got home when he gets home at a different time every day and I was out with the kids. He said he's done because he doesn't feel the same about me anymore. But I don't know. I'm just grieving and it sucks and I miss who he was before the accident before he got mean I mean why can't he just go back to being himself ? Sometimes I still see glimpses of that person and I love and miss him so much. It's not fucking fair. And I'm sad. I'm so sad. Nobody in my life understands they think I should be happy to be free of him or start over. I know I could, I know I could even find someone better. I'm only 30. But I just want him. I thought my feelings would fade after he's done so much to hurt me, like meeting up with an ex or flirting with a lady at his work but they haven't I don't care. I know it's pathetic. But it's how I feel shouldn't I be true to myself? I keep thinking that maybe I didn't show him that I appreciated him before. I have a temper. I've said things I regret in arguments. But so does he.... I just don't want to let it go idk what's wrong with me if anyone's been through this lmk. We filed already for divorce weeks ago but I really don't want to go through with it. I can't stop crying

So I (F30) am 5'4" and now 210.4 pounds after losing about 31 pounds. Awesome right!? I dropped 4 pant sizes and I'm happy with my weight loss. I tracked calories and used phentermine ,(dr. prescribed) along with exercise. It probably took 5-6 weeks.

However my goal weight is more like 190 or 180. I'd really like to keep going but for about 10 days now my weight has been the same! I'm still eating in a deficit, although ofc a little less deficit than before because of the loss, it's about a 500 calorie deficit. I downloaded an app to double check my calories and a few things were more than I thought but still not pushing me over the 500 cal. Deficit for my weekly average.

Yet yesterday I weighed 210.2 today is 210.4, every day has been like this over the past week varying from 209.8 to 210.8 .

So am I still losing weight? How can I make sure I keep losing? I've been finding it harder and harder to stick to the deficit and the results were motivating me.

Also I must weigh every day or I lose my motivation to stick to the deficit I know some think it's not healthy but I do have to do it or I go off the rails.

I do get about 100 g of protein a day and keeping up on protein so far pretty well. I eat carbs or whatever also I don't restrict foods just do moderation with the calorie tracking and focus on healthy and protein heavy choices.

Thank you please let me know if I'm making any mistakes and if there's anything I should change or look into!!