Vivid Dreams
Does anyone else constantly have dreams about their ex spouse? My stbxw had an emotional affair last year that I found out about in October. We tried to get things back on track. We both made changes and really opened up lines of communication and layed everything on the table. Well, last Sunday she exploded on me like I've never seen and asked for a divorce.We had been together since we were 19 and married since we were 21, now 35.
The affair she had really affected me being intimate. When we would have sex, it felt like I was just being used as a tool as her attitude during sex became a lot more aggressive. Anyway, I've always had very vivid and imaginative dreams. Every night I have dreams about her cheating, lying, getting pregnant (we were never able to get pregnant) or any other sort of off the wall depressing situation.
We are stuck in our house together until the end of July. We are sleeping in separate rooms. Things are amicable in day to day stuff. Just acting as roomates. Its extremely depressing losing not only the person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, but also my best friend. I've never lived alone before and that thought scares me. We relocated to a new state and I have no in person friends. She is also taking the dog. Sorry this post is all over the place. I know this very broad, but when does it get easier and how do you move on by yourself?