[TF 22] Confused about whether trans or whether just a fetish
MTF, 22. Have identified as a trans woman for 6 years now. Was on estrogen for 4 months and my depression significantly worsened. Stopped about a month ago and my mood drastically improved. During the depressive period I also had a religious crisis (christian) that is still ongoing and is affecting how I see myself. While on estrogen i was questioning if I was really trans or if i was just sunk cost fallacying myself into transitioning. since stopping, i have felt a lot better, but my libido has also returned and with it the attraction to feminization/sissy hypno content, which was very much the origin of me questioning my gender identity from ages 14-16. Now im questioning if i ever really was trans or if it has just been a fetish. I really don't want to be a Cis Man, but I'm questioning if that also is sunk cost fallacy, fear of losing acceptance from friends or just stubbornness. I haven't questioned this much in years. input would be very much appreciated.