A friend 30m and I 32f spent the night together
I '32f' and S '30m' have know each other for 7 year because I am friends with S's parents. When I left my previous job I moved in with his parents and they helped me out because I started my own business, but S was working abroad during this time so we didn't really have a relationship of our own and I lived with his parents for a little over a year. I moved out in 2023 and S returned to our country last year. S and I never really spent time together except for during his family events. I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years about 2 months ago however it was a long time coming. At a family event about a month ago I told S that because we're both single now we should be each other's wing people and he agreed. I was travelling home and took a flight from the city S lives in now which is about 1.5hours away from the town his parents and I live in, because flights are more expensive from my town. I asked S if I could stay over at his place on Friday night because my flight was on Saturday and I didn't want to risk being late and we could go out and do our wing person plan and he agreed. We went out with a mutual friend and had a couple of drinks at the bar when the mutual friend who was the designated driver said he wants to go home and dropped us off at S's place. While there I told S that I still wanted to go out because it was still early and he said sure he just wants to have a snack. While eating we started watching series and I suggested that we just stay in and continue watching the series and I changed into my pj's. While watching tv he gave me a blanket and kept coming closer and closer to me on the couch and we ended up cuddling in front of the TV. I then said I needed to go to sleep because I had a flight the next morning. While in the guest room I heard him walking around and then he knocked on my door asking me why am I not reading my messages and went out again. I checked the message and it was him asking if I really wanted to sleep in the guest room - I went to his room and asked him if we're just gonna sleep and he said yes. I got into bed with him and we started to cuddle again and I then kissed him and we started making out. I told him we're busy with nonsense because of my relationship with his parents and told him we can never tell anyone because I don't want to make things awkward and he agreed. I told him we needed to stop and he immediately did and I said let's go to sleep. He cuddled with me again. Then I turned around again and said that we were already making out so we might as well continue because the damage was done and it was AMAZING. I told him that we can never speak of this and that in the morning he needs to pretend this didn't happen. After a very hot make out session we went to sleep while cuddling the whole night. The next morning he tried to kiss me and I just turned around without saying anything because I had morning breath and didn't want to kiss him in that condition. He cuddled with me for a few minutes but then he got up and went to watch TV while I continued to sleep. He kept checking in on me asking if I still wanted to sleep more and what time I wanted to leave for the airport. I never spoke to him about the kissing and cuddling and sleeping in the same bed. He drove me to the airport and I was just talking all kinds of nonsense and not saying about about the night before. I then saw he deleted his message while I was at the airport. Currently my car is parked at his place while I am visiting my hometown and he will pick me up on Monday evening from the airport when I go back. I don't know if and how I should broach the subject or if I lost my chance. I cannot stop thinking about him and the night we spent together because he was so amazingly respectful and he is really hot. I didn't see him in this light before because I was in a relationship and because we never spent time alone together because we've only known each other through his parents. Must I just forget about the night like I said we must; or must I send him a message asking him how he feels about that night, or must I rather speak to him when he fetches me from the airport on Monday. What if it was just a drunken night for him and he regrets it or something. We haven't spoken since I left but we never actually spoke much before this event either. It was very spur of the moment, but ever since he's all I can think about. Please help me not make a fool of myself and kindly advise how I should approach this or just forget about it?