Background, I have been seeing this girl for about 2.5 months and we just took a weekend trip to Vegas to go to a music festival to see some of her favorite bands. The trip started out great, we got closer than ever, we spent the morning cuddling… It was amazing. Then we went to the music festival. I wasn’t feeling great from the start (back pain, claustrophobia, exhaustion) but I tried to push through without fully telling her how bad it was because I didn’t want to ruin her experience. That was mistake #1. I didn’t realize but she likes to go to the front in the mosh pit, so I followed her. We wanted a couple sets over about 2 hours, and in one of the mosh pits someone hit my back and I pulled a muscle. Also (mistake 2) I have anxiety and I don’t like being in super crowded places. I also failed to communicate this to her beforehand. After 2 hours, we had one set I thought we weren’t interested in before the last 2 big ones (4 more hours until the end). I needed a break, my back hurt, I wasn’t doing well. But I hadn’t communicated this to her well enough. So the time came when I thought we could take a break, and she said she didn’t want to go. I didn’t plead my case very well to be fair, but she didn’t want to lose our spot. I snapped under the pressure and said “well I’m going to go” and started walking through the crowd. I realized after a few rows I would never get back to her in that crowd.
I left, did what I had to do, got some ibuprofen from the medical tent… then texted her that I regretted splitting up, but my anxiety was triggered so it sounded panicky and there were multiple texts. I waited for the end, and then texted her to meet up and it went undelivered. Her phone had died. At that moment it hit me I hadn’t asked her if she knew the name of our hotel, if she brought her room key, etc. I had no way to find her. In a panic I ran around for an hour until security made me go with everyone else, then I waited outside the gate. The security wasn’t helpful, they asked me to submit a missing person report which I was 10 minutes from doing. Then she texts and calls me, she got her phone charged somehow but she was scared in the festival grounds and lost. I tried to get security to help me but they refused, eventually we were reunited. She was not happy, and refused my relieved hug (which was totally fair) upon meeting up. We barely spoke, but I kept trying to talk about it and put my foot in my mouth by trying to justify leaving, etc making it worse. We started driving home the next morning, but she asked to be dropped off in another city halfway so her friends could get her. I have given her space and sent a real apology owning up to everything 2 days ago, including owning up to my selfishness afterwards. I have not heard back from her since the apology because I am giving her space, but I will try reaching out again in a few days. Did I break this beyond repair?
TL,DR: I left the girl I was dating at the front of a mosh pit at a music festival in Vegas in a panic with no concrete plan to meet back up afterwards. It turned into a nightmare for her and she’s rightfully pissed. Do you think this is a recoverable disagreement?