feel like i look sick.
I am a 23-year-old 5’2 black female and I recently went from the weight 137 to 112
i’ve always been small for a majority of my life when I hit my late teens early 20s I gained a little bit of weight and it just freaked me out because I have been so used to being the petite and so small so I kind of went on a certain type of binge where I wasn’t eating as much (wouldn’t eat for days then binge)
as I should’ve been and it caused me to lose a crazy amount of weight now I look totally different regarding my body.
I lost so much weight in my breast and my thighs and my buttocks, things that I would feel that would make me look more feminine and womanly and now I am just extremely insecure about my body when I used to be extremely confident about myself but when i did used to look in mirror i felt like i was huge !
I’ve been to the doctor and health wise i’m fine !
Honestly if my breast didn’t look so sad i probably wouldn’t be ass bothered but they extremely different from how they looked before and i hate it.
How did you guys get through that phase?
I am feeling like I want to gain back a good 10 pounds but I keep scaring myself into thinking I’m going to look “fat” again and I don’t want to feel that way
What were some ways that you guys gained back weight and were there any recommendations that you guys can give me to gain back some fatty tissue in way my brain doesn’t realize i’m trying to plump it up again??
Im starting to feel like I look sick and I’m starting to feel like I look like I do have a disorder and I don’t like that feeling so if you guys could give me some kind words, some things of encouragement because lately, I just hate the way I look in the mirror and I don’t like feeling that way by myself.
(i’m sorry if I’m coming off like I’m making a big deal out of nothing cause I know 130 isn’t a lot and I know some people deal with different things than me so this isn’t coming from a place where I’m trying to be sarcastic or anything I’m genuinely going through it right now mentally and I don’t know who else to talk to you about these type of things because people just tell me I look fine and I don’t think I look fine, i feel like i look like skin and bones and it making me hate looking at myself. )