My therapist asked what came to mind when I thought about the word 'control', and asked for my dictonary definition.
Immediately - I felt negative. I looked down and away. Held in close. I imagined puppets. The word controlled puppeteering someone or something. My definition was completely autonomy and manipulation over someone or something.
I asked my partner the same question. He said he imagined a computer. His definition was 'operating something'. Blew my mind
My therapist said but what about if I said I was going to go drive my car out of control? By your definition, that would be good. And it blew my mind a bit
Imagine Boss A and Boss B. Boss A says hes going to the shop and asks Boss B to keep control while hes gone. He comes back and Boss B is telling everybody what to do and changing tasks. Boss A is like? Huh. I just meant keep it going, stop any chaos if it happens. If it were me, I'd 100% interpret that as Boss B did.
I need to control a pen for it to write. To control what I eat and drink so I enjoy what I consume. Control what music I put on in the car so I enjoy my drive. I need to control the car to my ability so I don't crash. Control my body movements so I can walk, talk and move.
Say your friends or family ask to go on a picnic tomorrow. And you say "if the weather is good". You'll probably spend the rest of the day checking the weather and the forecast for tomorrow, something you can't change or control. When you could spend it considering what food you'd buy for it; something you can control.
IT BLEW MY MIND. Thought I'd post it here, incase this resonates with anyone else.