u/DesignerDistinct5409

Took my 4 week old son to the ER today and I feel like I’m being gaslit

He’s only 4 weeks old but hasn’t had any issues with breastmilk , yesterday I gave him formula and he spit it up .. he normally doesn’t spit it up but today he’s been way more sleepy. He doesn’t cry during diaper changed and I even undressed him completely and he didn’t cry. It felt like he had something stuck in his throat.. his sounds that he usually make sounded congested .. he was going in and out of sleep alot like he was lathargic I just felt like something was wrong so we go to the ER & doctor can’t find anything wrong and send us on our way but when we were packing to leave he starts coughing and turns red / purple like he was trying to spit up but couldn’t , he couldn’t breath and a little water / saliva came out his mouth and nose I kept trying to make him breath I try to get the nurse and she comes in super calm saying it’s just reflux and it’s ok but that’s was traumatic super traumatic , I start crying and my husband had nurse are telling me to calm down that it’s ok but he’s never done that before and I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH HIM !!!

As we are leaving the doctor finds us and asks us what happened.. I explained but I’m crying , he asks if we want to stay longer and I said yes but I feel like everyone is looking at me like I’m crazy.

Is this reflux normal? To not breathe for a few seconds? To turn purple / red & only saliva to come out not spit up

I feel embarrassed and scared and alone and unsupported

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u/DesignerDistinct5409 — 6 days ago
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I just want to feel less alone

I’ve always had big boobs (36 DD) which i felt made me look larger than i really was. I’ve always wanted a breast reduction but wanted to wait until after I had kids. Now that I am 3 weeks PP and breastfeeding my boobs are legit like a 38H and it’s making me so depressed. Im not even that upset about my weight gain (220 lbs from 160) .. I just do not know how to dress with these huge boobs and it’s really messing with my self esteem

I love being able to breastfeed but I’m struggling so much with these new boobs & with the summer around the corner I feel like I’m not going to ever leave my house

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u/DesignerDistinct5409 — 12 days ago