u/DescriptionWrong8878

I don't know if this would help but i think academically studying the bible or learning the history and evolution of christianity might help with deconstruction

The Two subreddits i recommend is

r/AskBibleScholars

r/AcademicBiblical

Some youtube channels

Dan McClellan

Ryan M Reeves has some youtube videos

Theoengage Christianity and History

Bible and Archaeology

Bart D Ehrman

UsefulCharts has some playlists

Religion

Religious Texts

Historicity of The Hebrew Bible

Religious Sects and Denominations

thoughts on if a society that would worship goddess it be egalitarian or matriarchal?

What was the positive and negative effects of the agricultural revolution? how did the domesticating wheat affect our diet?