so it started around February this year when i was cramming all night multiple times a week for my exams. i started noticing it after exam and my health anxiety started around that time too(still have it but its better ig). i worried about Parkinson's disease or juvenile parkinsonism since i also had like involuntary twitches, trembling of hands, dropping things and even weight gain. turned out that i had vitamin d level as 12.7. lately I've also been inconsistent in taking the medication for my vitamin d deficiency.
anyways, I'm finding it difficult to remember names of tv show, movies, characters and people. i used to also have difficulty in remembering words before, but now that's gotten better although i still have difficulty in dealing with the other things and my vocabulary skills aren't actually back to the level they used to be in although it did get better .
i thought that maybe I'm being way too conscious and that it may be because of health anxiety. in the beginning my anxiety was so high and was around for every moment of the day so i couldn't even form sentences properly in my own brain. however, now when i cant remember words or things i love and used to remember well, i panic and get all anxious and start testing myself trying to remember what i forgot as well as recalling other things so that i do not forget them. i wonder if this practice somehow led to my brain being tricked into thinking that i simply cant remember things??? i mean initially it made sense since i was pulling all those all nighters but why has it followed me for 3 months now??? is it reasonable to think that it's cuz of my health anxiety and just try to improve it on my own??? my parents will think that I'm pathetic and dramatic if i asked to get professional help, I'm also afraid and embarrassed to tell the physician I'm seeing about this.
oh and as for my other symptoms, they change according to how consistent i am in taking my vitamin d and calcium syrups. I'm still gaining weight though. i used to be really skinny last year and was around 43 or 44 kgs, last time i checked in march i was 48 but now I'm prolly 50 kgs or more. all im saying is my metabolism is being fried for some reason and i wonder why.
something else I'd like to add which idk really matter or not is that i think I'm going through depression but I'm not sure. i haven't contacted my friends and I'm on my tab all day, i cant do anything else even when i want to or plan to. i dont feel depressed though, in fact every time i feel sad and wanna cry i push it down. something else im not sure is worthy to mention is that i think my periods are inconsistent. i was supposed to get it on april 22 since i got it in march 22 before that. however i got it 15 days later on today.