Hi so i am 19 year old boy , child in the world of philosophy
So in school i was so much smart , not only academic i used to think very critically , even my teachers used to inform my principal that this student is different from all .
But then i passed 10 with good marks everything was going good but then the NEET preparation came in which when i used to ask questions from my teachers they used to mock me by saying “ ye sab bhagwaan ki den hai , NEET ke liye padho scholar mt bno is time mei “ so my curiosity was rotting unused so if I wanted to read some books other than my syllabus, my parents used to say that focus on ur syllabus read these in ur free time and i also got guilty that why i am not doing my syllabus and then I failed neet 1st attempt and then failed 2nd attempt.
Now i am pursuing my bachelor, escaped or u can say rejected by neet rat race (failed as a rat as well)
And when i sit with my fellows they all are wannabe intellect and speak quotes or thoughts which they obviously got from reels and i know that i know more than them but i sit silently because i regret that i lost my pace of increasing intellect i was having
i think reels have spoiled me too
I have interest in biology- botany and evolution
And i want to begin philosophy too
Please someone guide me who have felt like me in past or suggest me in which community i can get help if not here