New Grad Hazing Woes/ Advise Me Pls
I am 3 months into a 4 month orientation as a new grad nurse, and I truly don't think I can take the bullying and hazing anymore. It's constant, every shift, both of my main preceptors, and has made me incredibly depressed. It's just constant belittling, telling me I don't belong on the unit, I won't be able to handle myself off orientation, yelling, glares, talking loudly/ audibly behind my back but within earshot. It's also a super toxic unit culture in general and everyone seems to constantly be saying awful things about one another. I really don't ever remember feeling as depressed as I currently am.
I am going to start applying for other jobs. Most of them will be with a hospital system that I was already offered jobs with and turned down for my current role. How do I explain coming crawling back 3 months later? What do I say about why I'm quitting on orientation? Do I have to say anything? Please give me some shred of hope that I can leave this awful job without tanking my career and having to move states or something