All alone again and trying to deal with it
Hello haven’t been here in a while I’m M24 just recently turned 24 I had a gf but as always it never lasted long that would make my 5th relationship and ofc I end up heartbroken I got over the break up but now I’m seeing once again I’m alone no friends tbh I have been alone most my life and tbh it sucks I think I got to a point where I’ve been so disappointed by people and never having anyone around nor being there long enough my brain rewires itself to make me feel as if I don’t want anyone around but deep down I do I want the minimum of one person to call friend and hangout and actually be invited out instead of me doing all the initiating every person I considered a friend was never truly a friend they were just people I knew because they would only talk to me if I initiated the conversation and if I never initiated, the conversation, no conversation is to be had people would stop talking to me randomly and don’t even get me started on my dating life lol I can write you all a series of three books on that