Just i burner acc but i really need to get it off my chest.
I have problems with communication when it comes to things that make me feel hurt or uncomfortable, so i tend not to be open about it, which can sometimes lead to misunderstandings and conflicts, and this also happened with my best friend. After that he asked me to be straight about these things and we made a deal.
Yesterday during our conversation he brought up a topic that makes me feel bad and HE KNOWS about it. It obviously made me mad, and because i felt a lot more susceptible to negativity recently i told him to stop with this stuff without a second thought (while normally i woulf think it's too mean to say).
When he replied he said he's glad that it worked out and that i'm being straight with him, he was provoking me to see if i had learned my lesson. He said he would bring this up later either way but man. It's done out of consideration but i'm being "tested" as if i have no feeling whatsoever. It makes me so mad i want to cry and hurt myself