Is it too codependen-ty if I want to date someone more experienced than me in an specific realm?
I wish to start looking for a partner. But I don’t want it to come from a place of lack but just..I want a partner. Someone who can uplift me creatively and who knows more about the things I want to improve on creatively or can assist me on constructing some things in my life. For example, I want to learn to sew (haven’t even started yet ) so I wish I dated someone who checks all my boxes PLUS maybe can teach me about sewing? Or someone who can help me do an upcoming creative project regarding music writing or a Van conversion I’m doing. I would like for them to hold my hand in one thing I want to work on. Acts of service, physical touch, and quality time are one of my top love languages..I wish to meet someone who meets those boxes also(though I should mention that too). I of course won’t hold it over their head as their job or depend on them solely because I build my own success and I try everyday to contribute to that but sometimes I just want someone to care for me in specific parts of my life. I really fear relationships because I don’t want to lose autonomy and fear attachment and commitment, but I want to be intimately close with someone and experienced dating. Sometimes I am tired and I wish someone cared for me in my tiredness and I would love to do the same vice versa for someone I call my partner but no dependency.