Hey,
So basically, there’s this girl who has completely taken over my heart and mind. She’s not just beautiful, but also smart, driven, active, funny, and amazing to talk to the kind of person I could genuinely see myself spending a life with.
We’ve known each other for about three years, more or less, and she still completely stuns me. I get flustered and can’t get my words out smoothly when I talk to her.
I let myself go over the last couple of years, but I’ve even started dieting and working out because of her, she’s really into fitness. I’ve already lost 20 lbs, but God, she still completely paralyzes me.
With that said, the hardest part is that for the last couple of weeks, I keep having the same dream about her. The setting is always different, usually somewhere in nature, but the feeling is the same. We’re talking, I hold her hand, and I kiss her.
In those moments, I can actually feel my heart in my dreams. I wake up happy for a second, and then reality sets in it was just a dream. I’ll probably never get to hold her hand, look into her eyes, and see the same thing she sees in mine.
I don’t just like her ,I yearn for her. I yearn for the chance to someday be by her side.
Ps: She hasnt rejected advances or anything, is more like something in me tells me is not the correct time in my life ,which makes it feel more real.
Ps2: I know she uses reddit so Katherine from Puerto Rico, Siento que te amo sin conocerte . Quiero creer que sabes quien soy.