u/Dense-Gate2461

I’m forcing the connection, unconsciously wanting to reconnect, you wanna move on. I’m convinced this is what moving on looks like for me. I get that it isn’t what it looks like for you … which is why you know you should have nothing to do with me. I guess I’ll come across as hopeless, I’m honest though. I feel like loving someone looks like figuring it all out. I know that someday you’ll be alone and you’ll be wanting to hear from me and I just won’t be there. I don’t want to exist in that timeline where that happens. just can’t be that way. it’s selfish sure but so were you. I never stopped loving you, it was a confusing time for me and you. you just don’t remember it as well as I do. In order to align myself with who is meant for me, the healed me. I have to drop this and let you go. I just can’t bring myself to without doing the hard work on my own. sucks being codependent even when you’re no longer my companion in this thing we call life.