I am 5’6 in height and 5.5x4.7 and 6.2 BP but I recently lost my virginity and with a women that had kids so as I was in there I didn’t really feel anything as she was on top is it because she had kids and her walls were “bigger” ? I need an understanding
I met this girl named S through dancing because my family dances too. We met in December and hit it off fast. I was 19 and she was 23. She wasn’t technically my first because I’ve been with other girls before, but for some reason this situation affected me differently. She was the first girl I bought flowers for, the first girl I really put emotional effort into, and the first girl I seriously pictured building something with.
We only really hung out for about a month, but the connection felt strong in my head. The first night we met we ended up sleeping together, and the second day I took her to Busch Gardens. She was attractive and I liked her a lot at first. I genuinely cared about her and tried treating her right.
Later on I started finding out more about her situation. She has two kids and was with her baby daddy for around 7 or 8 years. He still pays for the apartment she lives in and sometimes stays there. My aunt and other people around me kept warning me that the situation was going to bring drama.
She also liked going out to clubs and bars a lot, and over time I started realizing our lifestyles and goals didn’t match. I’m trying to focus on becoming a police officer, going to the academy, making money, improving in the gym, and building a stable future. I started feeling like the relationship would distract me from where I’m trying to go.
We stopped talking around January 4. Since then, up until today, May 8, I’ve honestly been in a depressive state over it even though I still try to stay in good spirits around people and keep pushing forward with work, the gym, and my goals. Some days I feel normal, other days I still think about her a lot. What confuses me is that I’ve been with other girls before, but this one hit me differently and I still don’t fully understand why.