The rain was coming sideways when I clocked in. Wind off the ridge curled around the metal structure and threw itself against the crematorium. I stepped under the gutter’s edge, shoes making that gummy squeak across the tile entryway.
The body was already staged for me in Bay Three. Steel cart. Black bag. Tag fastened to the zipper.
I looked through the porthole, checking the chamber from habit. It was clean. Bone dust vacuumed. Track rollers greased. The firebrick around the chamber throat had that faint pink shimmer, the kind it takes after a proper burn. Nobody alive—or dead—accidentally locked in. All was in order.
I checked the tag with a reflexive motion. Recognized the name. Everyone would. It had been plastered over national news for months. The photo they used made him look ordinary—like he worked the seafood counter at Kroger, not carved up seven women and kept their teeth in a Folgers can.
He’d been executed two days ago.
They must’ve driven him down overnight. Standard procedure: discreet, no spectacle. Shuffle the body around until the public loses track.
I removed the tag with thoughts of the highest bid on eBay, set it aside, and started the prep.
Zipper down.
First, the face. Not calm, not pained. Just slack.
But it was the hands that stopped me.
They were huge.
Broad palms. Thick, gnarled fingers. Knuckles swollen and split with old work scars. Nails like horn.
I found myself staring.
These were doing hands. And not gentle ones.
These were hands that took.
I thought of what those hands had held: rope, cord, blade handles, throats, the terrified, the dying, the dead.
There were tattoos, too. Prison-born. Faded ink on the inside of the wrist. Symbols. Shapes. Something like an eye with no iris.
I reached for the arm to lift it and—
Slice.
The corpse’s fingernail caught me just beneath the thumb. A thin line. Not deep. Enough to bleed.
My skin stung as the blood welled up.
I looked at the dead, culprit hand.
One of the fingers had curled slightly.
The overhead lights buzzed and dimmed as thunder cracked outside the walls.
The storm wanted in.
Wind clawed at the siding. Rain smacked the tin roof hard enough to sound like gravel. The drainpipes choked and gurgled.
My cut burned—the kind of sting too painful for the size of the wound. I flexed my thumb and the bead of blood broke loose.
I put to use a paper towel, zipped up the body bag, then wheeled him to the track.
The cart rattled against the metal guide rails as I lined him up with the door.
His hands were still there in my mind. Even zipped back inside the bag, I could see them. Their shape pressing through the vinyl.
I pressed the button and the retort’s door lifted in a slow, hydraulic rise, the chamber yawning open with a dull roar of fans.
I slid him forward.
The rollers took over.
The chamber swallowed him by degrees: feet, legs, hips . . .
The thunder cracked again—so close it rattled the frame of the bay.
For half a second, I thought I saw the body’s hands outside the bag.
I blinked, and they were gone.
The rollers stopped. He was fully inside.
I pressed the button.
The door came down, locking him away from me.
The ignition light flared. Flames engaged with a hollow rush.
Heat instantly pushed through the steel door, blooming into my face and drying my eyes. I stepped back, but not far. I wanted to monitor the first few minutes because of who he was—watch the way the body shifted; listen to the faint thumps when limbs changed position.
The burn in my hand grew stronger.
I flexed my fingers and caught the faint scent of singed hair—a smell that shouldn’t have escaped. The secondary chamber should have caught that. Should have cooked the gases into nothing. It was the last thing you wanted, an afterburner on the fritz.
The storm raged—lightning flashing against the high windows, thunder following so close it sounded like it cracked in the rafters. The lights flickered and steadied again.
For a moment, I thought the fans faltered too.
But the sound didn’t vanish—it changed. Beneath the roar, I heard another pattern, an irregular cadence like knuckles rapping brick.
Slow.
Heavy.
I leaned in to the porthole.
The flames distorted everything. Heat shimmered, warping the body into a blur, the bag peeling back in strips. His hands were blacken—skin tightening, splitting, curling back from bone.
I should’ve looked away. It’s best not to stare too long into the fire. It sometimes stares back.
Instead, I watched the fingers twitch. Was it a random contract of heat, or a slow, grasping flex?
Lightning lit the bay in white for half a breath. In that flash, the porthole glass caught my reflection.
The eyes looking back were wrong.
I jerked away from the glass. Not so much a jump as a quick, desperate retreat.
My heart hammered in my chest. For a long moment, I stood there, eyes fixed on the retort’s door, feeling the burn in my cut pulse harder.
Finally, I forced myself to side-step back to the control panel and look through the porthole again.
For an instant, the body inside wasn’t charred. The bag was gone, burned away, but the skin was intact—
and the hands gripped rope.
I knew the rope’s texture—coarse, fraying in spots.
I knew the sound it made pulling tight.
I knew the gasp it forced from a throat.
Then it was fire again. Bones peeking through the seared flesh. The hiss of moisture leaving muscle.
I told myself it was the heat playing with my vision. The mind filling in shapes.
I turned away, adjusted the fuel dial, logged the chamber temp.
The rain hit the roof harder. The rhythm of it seemed to find a home in the pulsing throb of my cut. My skin itched around it.
Thunder boomed.
I thought I heard laughter under it.
-----
-----
By the two-hour mark, the chamber was quiet but for the low rush of the fans. The flames had burned down to a steady glow.
I slid on the heat sleeves, gloves, and face shield.
The door lifted with a slow groan. Heat rolled out, pressing against me through the gear, soaking through the layers until my skin prickled.
Inside, the body was reduced to partial frame—charred fragments, powdery edges, ribs collapsed inward.
I reached in with the rake and began drawing the fragments forward. Larger pieces first—skull cap, jaw, half of a femur—clinking into the steel pan.
My cut burned beneath the glove with every stroke.
I hooked what was left of a humerus and pulled. For a moment, it wasn’t a bone at all—it was an arm. An intact arm connected to a shoulder.
I stopped. The whirring of the fans seemed to vanish. The chamber went silent. I held my breath, but all I could hear was the low, electric hum of the machine. The rain had gone, leaving the silence heavier than before.
It was a trick of the heat and lights, I told myself. A play of the mind.
Somewhere far off, thunder rumbled. It almost sounded like muttered words.
My hands tightened on the rake handle until I felt white knuckles.
I dragged the rest forward.
Everything that had been a man . . .
now just brittle, chalk-like pieces and pale dust.
-----
-----
I slid the collection pan onto the lip of the processor. The steel teeth inside waited.
I tipped the pan. The first pieces clattered down into the chamber.
The lid came down with a hollow slam.
I pressed the button.
The machine shuddered to life. Inside, bone churned and popped like stones crushing.
My cut throbbed under the glove, each pulse now a sharp spark up my arm.
The cremulator kept working, but the noise shifted. It wasn’t the usual grinding anymore—it was the scrape of something moving against the inside of the lid.
Testing it.
Searching for a weak spot.
I leaned closer, and my hand wasn’t resting where I thought it was.
It was inside.
In the teeth.
Pulling the last unchewed pieces of itself down.
I recoiled back.
The lid was still sealed. My hand was still outside.
But the pressure in my palm remained, like I’d been holding something hot and refusing to let go.
I tore the glove from my hand, the motion a frantic blur. I stared at the cut. It was no longer just a red line; it was angry and swollen, red streaks beginning to form at the edges.
The thunder rolled again, closer this time, like the storm was coming back.
-----
-----
The urn sat waiting on the counter—a black plastic box, no adornment. I poured carefully, the fine cremains flowing in a soft, even stream. The sound was faint, like sand filling an hourglass.
When the last of it slid free, I reached for a tag to record the name.
As I wrote, the letters formed without me thinking.
The handwriting looked . . . not mine.
I closed the lid of the urn—
hands steady.
Familiar.
No burn.