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Part 1 - Part 2

I rushed back into the house, hoping that Margaret was fine.
The only noise in the house was the teapot.

I entered the kitchen and almost screamed in Margaret's face.
"MARGARET! WHAT HAPPENED?! ARE YOU ALRIGHT?!"

She slowly turned to look me in the eyes. I’d never seen someone look that empty.
Her eyes were so full of tears I could barely see her pupils.
She stood there frozen, right beside a broken cup, arms wide open as if she was trying to cover her face, but she just couldn't move.

"I'm so sorry Margaret, I'll send someone to come get Buddy, I don't want you to see him like that."

As if she was a painting, she just looked back at me.

My radio crackled.
"Chief, you there? Warren said there's something you need to see up at the crater. He sounded pretty worried."

The radio crackled again.

Margaret finally blinked.

"Go". I went. I left her there. Alone.

I got back in the car and went back where all started.

The area was completely blocked off by the local firefighters and the volunteers.
They moved the roadblocks as they saw my car coming, and Warren waved at me from afar.
I got off the car and reached him.

"Chief I... I..." he kept stuttering, I've never seen him like this.
"Get ahold of yourself Warren, why did you ask for me to come here?"
"Sorry, I'll just show you."

He stopped talking completely and I followed him as he brought me to a part of the woods near the crater.

"Something happened here. It looks like a trail of some kind." His voice shivered on every word.
"What kind of trail?"
"Death. Everything's dead. Plants. Animals. All dead and..." A pause. "Wrong."
"Show me."

We entered the forest.
I could feel the dead and grass crunching under my steps. The trees were completely leafless and gray. The trail kept changing directions, I couldn't see a pattern in it.
Then animal corpses started to appear, everywhere around the trail, not just where the dead grass was, but everywhere around it too.

"They're just like the dogs." I murmured to myself.
"What dogs, chief?"
"Mr. Harris and Margaret's. I just saw them, and they were in the same conditions as these animals. The eyes as pale as ash and torn out of their skulls."
"What the hell is going on chief? Is this some kind of chemical spill or weapon?!"
"I don't know, but let's try to keep this as quiet as possible, the only thing missing now is mass hysteria."

Warren looked ready to fall apart.
I needed him away from the trail.

"Listen Warren, I'll keep searching the area for a bit. Do me a favor and call Melanie, ask her what Barrett and Pike found. Then come report me what she tells you."
"You got it man, I'll go call her right away".

As he got back to the road I started to search for something new.
All looked the same. Just... Dead.

Until trees began to bend out of the way of the trail and ground flattened beneath my feet.
That's when I found it.

Just at eye level.
Its wings completely open.
Stuck in place.
Unable to move.

A small blue bird trapped in the middle of the air.
Like it was carved into stone.

I tried to touch it and it was cold.
It looked like it had been hanging there for hours.

I tried to move it but it wouldn't budge. It didn’t move at all.
Like the air itself was holding it there.

Everything around that bird still sounded normal.
Warren shouting somewhere near the road.
Dead leaves and grass crunching under my boots.
Water splashing in the distance.

But that thing stayed there like the world had forgotten it was supposed to fall.
And not even the wind would move its feathers.

I turned towards the road and yelled for Warren.
"WARREN! WARREN! COME I FOUND SOMETHING!"

Just as I turned back to face the bird, it fell to the ground.

"What did you find chief?"
"This... What?"
"You okay there?"
"I haven't gone this long without a drink in years. I think I'm seeing things."
"Okay... Well I heard back from Melanie and the guys. She said they're at the house of the young kid we found. And..."
"And what? Did they find anything?"
"The mother said that she last saw him with Jeremy Tom. I think you should go there."

I ran to my car and drove to Tyler's house as fast as I could.

I knocked on the door and Pike let me in.

"Good evening Ms. I heard you last saw Tyler with my son."
"Talk to me like a human being Tom, if I hear you call me Ms. one more time I'll send you beside my son." She said, her eyes were filled with rage and fear.

"I'm sorry Catherine. Truly I am. But I haven't heard from Jeremy since yesterday, and I'm really scared something might have happened to him. Do you have some idea of where they were headed?"
"They always hang out in the old house by the liquor store."
"You mean the Kennedys' house?"
"Yeah, exactly."
"Thank you so much and Cath, I promise you, I'll find out what happened."

As we walked away we could hear her cries.

Barrett and Pike followed me to the house.

"What would they even be doing out here?" Pike asked.
"Probably drinking and smoking, we're right by the Jefferson's store" Barrett answered.
"You two shut up and help me search the place." I told them.

The house had been abandoned for at least 15 years now, the Kennedys were forced to leave after the accident at the mill.
The wood floor was crooked, there were more windows than walls.

The stink of mud and bird shit filled the area. But I could still feel that constant old coin smell that seemed to follow me everywhere I went.

"Search everywhere, if you see something out of place, shout."

I started from the first floor, Pike searched the perimeter and Barrett went upstairs.

It didn't seem like anyone had been there for a long time, dust covered everything everywhere,
But that smell. I knew we would have found something.

"Chief! Pike! Come! There's something here!" Barrett screamed.

We rushed up the stairs. Barrett was pointing with his flashlight at a sealed bottle placed perfectly on a shelf in the hallway.

I recognized it immediately, it wasn't a random bottle. It was whiskey, my whiskey.

"I have to call my wife." I said to the two while my heart started to pump like a drum.
"Why? What's with the bottle?" Pike asked, confused.
"That's my whiskey, it disappeared from my kitchen this afternoon. Keep searching, but be ready for trouble."

I rushed outside and called my wife.
"Are you home?" I asked. My voice barely sounded like mine.
"Yes, why?"
"Go to your car. NOW!"
"Why? What’s going on?!” Her voice cracked immediately.
"Just go!"

A few minutes passed.

"Okay I'm in the car. What's going on? Where do I have to go?!"
"Just stay put for a moment, don't go back in, the house isn't safe."
"Why? Did someone threaten you?!"
"No... but are you sure Jeremy hasn't been home all day?"
"Yes, I told you, you were the only one coming and going all day."
"Tell me each time you saw me or heard me come or go."
"Let's see... You left for the crater, came back, then you went to the hospital, but you must have forgotten something and came back just a few minutes later, and left before I could see you. Last time I saw you or heard you it was when Monica came."

"When I left for the hospital... I didn't come back in."

Silence.

I could hear her breath through the phone. Mine too.

And for the first time since Mercer Ridge, I wasn't sure if I was the one in control.

It had been a long day. After 8 hours of grueling work, I wanted nothing more than to sit on my sofa and enjoy a relaxing night watching TV.

Driving home, my head was clear and my focus was solely on getting back safely and in a timely manner. The missus was waiting for me.

Unfortunately, I wouldn’t be so lucky.

On the final stretch down a quiet wooded road, red and blue colors protruded the pitch black night sky. I sighed as I pulled over slowly, with the police closing in on my rickety old minivan. 

As the police approached, a bead of sweat dripped down my forehead. I had always been nervous around law enforcement, and being pulled over in the dead of night never meant anything good.

The officer introduced himself, and hit me with the cliche line: 

“Do you know how fast you were going?” before asking for my license and registration.

I put on my gentlest smile, and handed my information over and he stopped for a moment, peering suspiciously in my direction. He looked around, and with no cars in sight, asked me what I was doing out on this deserted road at this time of night.

I politely responded, concisely stating I was just heading home after a long day’s work. His eyes narrowed suspiciously and told me it wasn’t safe driving these roads this late. 

He leaned in, and with a concerned look on his face, told me that there was a recent report of a group of people faking gruesome injuries to get drivers to stop, and as soon as they exit their vehicle, they’d be attacked. Luckily, the man just barely got away, but not without a critical stabbing injury to his leg.

Bewildered, I thanked the officer and promised to keep an extra careful watch on the roads the rest of the way home. The officer smiled and told me he just had to run my plate, then I could be on my way.

I quickly responded, telling him to do whatever he needed to do, but I did mention that my wife and I would be taking our new boat out onto the lake this weekend, and since he was so nice, I invited him to tag along. 

With this, the officer responded with a goofy grin and told me how much he appreciated my offer. After that, he told me to just get on out of here and stay safe on the rest of my drive back.

He drove off without another word.

As the officer’s car faded into the distance, I let out a long sigh of relief.

I opened the center console, where a large hunting knife was stored, still dripping with crimson red blood. My right eye twitched in frustration as I thought back to how close I got to finishing the kill on the lucky man just hours before.

I finished driving three miles down the road before pulling off to the side once again and putting my car in park.

I made my way to the back of the car and opened the rear door, revealing the dead body of a woman covered in stab wounds.

She hadn’t been so lucky.

“One for two. Could have been worse,” I muttered, before disposing of the body in my pre-dug hole, 6 feet deep.

As I drove home in my new car, I couldn’t help but smile at how easy life had been after escaping the insane asylum just a week ago. 

It’s surprising how far a fake smile and good acting can take you.

It was a half empty rent controlled government subsidized apartment block so Wallace didn't understand why the security guard couldn't just let him sleep in the stairwell.

“Come on man,” said Wallace.

“I ain't gonna say it again. You don't live here so get the fuck out.”

“No one'll even know. I'll be out before the sun comes up,” said Wallace. “Don't make me sleep out there man. Have a heart or something.”

The guard took out a club. “Last warning.”

Wallace shook his head but started down the stairs. “How much they pay you to guard this place anyway?”

“Ain't about that. I got single mothers, I got kids living here. They see you, they get scared. No reason for them to get scared. Ain't no reason for you to be here. Wanna be here? Pay rent.”

“Man you got junkies living here. You telling me they don't scare nobody? You gonna tell them to get out too or what?”

“Tenants have a right to be here.”

“Not about the fear then is it? It's about the cash money.”

“Maybe try getting a fucking job,” the guard said, pushing Wallace out a side entrance.

Wallace spat.

So that's what it's about then, can't punch up so got to punch down. “They say there's a cold war on, between us and the Russians, but I tell you where there's a real cold war. Right here—” He touched his heart. “—in our country, our own god damn soul.”

“Well my heart ain't bleeding,” said the guard and shut the door.

And Wallace found himself out in the cold again, hands in pockets, wool hat pulled over his ears, walking, because walking keeps you warm. It keeps you alive. Stop walking and die, so Wallace kept walking.

He walked by a store selling televisions. Wallace had never had a television. The ones in the store window were all showing the news, a guy in a tie talking about the world:

“posturing… warheads… a dangerous game to play… Khrushchev… God bless the United States of America.”

He tried sleeping on a bench, but as soon as he fell asleep a cop came banging him awake. “Come on man,” pleaded Wallace, “it's cold and there isn't anybody here. Let me sit awhile. I'll be long gone soon.”

“There's shelters for cockroaches like you,” said the cop. “You want an address?”

“There's holes in the ground too.”

“Maybe I'll lend you a dollar to buy a shovel.”

“Would ya brother?”

“Beat it!” yelled the cop, and Wallace was walking again, against the wind, until he found a space between buildings where another building used to be, but that building had been demolished and now there were just dirt, weeds and garbage.

Wallace lay down on the ground.

He looked up.

There was swirling snow between him and the moon, and a lot of emptiness.

He shivered, turned sideways, pulled his knees up to his chest and wrapped his coat over as much of his body as he could.

Then something touched his leg.

He thought it was a rat and instinctively tried to kick out at it, but he couldn’t.

The something had looped itself around his ankle and was holding him down. It had his other ankle too, and his wrists, slithering along them like a long dry worm. And now it was wound around his neck. Not tight enough to suffocate him but just enough to hold him against the ground.

He strained, but it was no use.

He was breathing hard, his exhaled breath turning to clouds of vapour.

When he opened his mouth to scream, the something crawled, corkscrewing, down his throat, deep into his body, and the night turned very dark indeed…

He awoke cocooned.

He had barely enough room to move, but his limbs were no longer held. He felt as if placed into an oversized man shaped coffin. He didn't recognize the material, but it resembled a basket woven from a hundred thousand blades of grass. It was a prison of wheat, an armour of vegetation. It was hard. It permitted a faint yellow glow.

He didn't know how long he spent inside the cocoon, but one day it started to soften, brown and wilt.

Then it broke open.

And Wallace found himself struggling to stand in a failing brightness that hurt his eyes. He rubbed them with numbed, dirty fingers.

Tears ran down his cheeks.

The air carried fine particles of ash and the smell of burnt plastic.

The sun was a pale, worthless coin.

Surprisingly, he didn't feel hunger. He didn't feel thirst. He didn't feel cold either, although he knew that coldness was all around.

He walked to the street.

Nothing moved but the deep, penetrating wind blowing through the glassless windows of the skeletal frames of office towers, banks and apartment blocks surrounding him.

Far away a building collapsed under its own unsupportable weight.

The sound echoed.

His footsteps were too loud. “Hey man,” he croaked, dripping bloody phlegm from his mouth. “Is there anybody out there?”

Not even an insect buzzed.

The only vegetation was weeds, pushing up through cracks in the concrete, wrapping around crooked telephone poles, turning their jagged leaves towards the sickened sky.

Mushrooms grew.

In one of the ruined cars was a mass of melted flesh too big to have been a single person. A family, he thought. A family huddled together until the horrible end.

He threw up.

Litres of brown, foaming, gelatinous vomit.

“Father,” he heard someone say.

Except not really heard but sensed, like a word from a distant memory.

His heart beat faster.

Father…

When he looked down at his vomit, he saw movement, and crawling out of the liquid came dozens of cockroaches.

Father, they said.

Father. Father. Father. Father. Father. Father. Father. Father. Father. Father. Father…

When he looked up he saw a rainbow spread brilliantly above the dead grey city and the ends of his antennae swaying gently in the wind.

[Part 1]

I stood in Danny’s hospital room for longer than I should have after they collapsed back onto the beds.

Dr. Levin kept talking. I don’t remember a word of it.

All I could think about was the way they looked at me when they said it.
Like they pitied me.

My wife's ringtone brought me back to reality.

"Monica is here." A pause "I think she needs to hear some news directly from you."

"Give me ten." I hung up.

As I rushed out the hospital, telling Dr. Levin to get someone to clean up the mud, and hearing him shout something back at me.

The whole drive home I kept trying to think of something useful to tell Monica.
Her husband was lying naked, hairless, mindless in a hospital bed, and I had no idea on how to help him.

She introduced me to my wife in college, not long after that Danny and her started dating. But now I felt like I wasn't doing enough to bring her husband back.

I got out of the car, and immediately:

"So? What can you tell me that it's not already all around town?" She said with tears running down her cheeks.

"Can I get you something to drink first?"

"Your wife already tried. But I think you drank it all. So just talk." A pause "Please."

"I have no idea what is going on Monica."

"So you're as useless as always."

"Monica that's not fair, they're doing everything they can." My wife stepped in.

Monica glanced back at my wife, and without saying anything more she left.

"Thanks for defending me." I said to my wife.

"I had to, she would've jumped at your throat."

"What was that about my whiskey?"

"Wow, that's the only thing you can think of right now? I don't know, I think you drank it all, it's gone. The bottle is not in the cabinet."

"Did Jeremy take it?" I asked while trying to remember where I left it.

"No, he hasn't been home all day."

"Is he at Stacy's again?"

"I know as much as you do Thomas. Now go do your job while you're still sober."

I got back in my car and drove to the station.
During the drive I tried calling both my son and Stacy's dad, but no one picked up. Not that they ever did.

When I arrived at the station I found Harris' truck, parked just by the entrance. He wanted to make sure we couldn’t miss either the truck or the stench coming from it.
I glanced into the truck bed.

The dogs were piled together beneath a tarp stained dark with blood.

Their eyes were gone. Completely torn out of their sockets, just as pale as Danny's eyes.

I entered the station, trying as hard as I could to hide the shivers running down my spine.
As soon as I stepped in the main area, Harris, Deputy Barrett and the new rookie Pike all turned toward me.

"I know you saw them Chief." Harris said firmly.

"Well they were pretty hard to miss, what happened to them?"

"Mr. Harris says he found them like that." Deputy Barrett answered, annoyed.

"I don't need help to answer questions!" Harris spoke back to the Deputy.

"Calm down! Both of you! Harris I want to see where you found them. Pike and Barrett I want you two to go to victim's houses. Find out what they were doing up in Mercer at two in the morning."

"You got it Chief." Both Barrett and Pike answered in unison.

"Harris is it a problem if you leave the truck here? I want to take a closer look at the dogs later."

"Not at all, can I ride shotgun or do I have to act like a prisoner?"

We got into my car, both in the front, and drove to Harry's house.
There were only two houses where he lived, his and Margaret's.

We went straight to his garden.
"That's where I found them." He pointed to a red stained part of the grass. The blood was still fresh.

"Did you find or see anything unusual around them?"

"No, only that dead part of the grass." He said as he pointed to a grey patch of grass. It was dead and completely dried up.

"Wait this wasn't here before this morning?"

"No Chief, I take good care of my grass."

"Did you hear anything early in the morning?"

"Nothing out of the ordinary, just the dogs barking. I didn't even hear the explosion up in Mercer."

"Do you remember around which time did you hear them?"

"It was maybe around 6, I'm not sure though."

"Okay, got it. Do you know if Margaret's home? Maybe she saw or heard something."

"Yeah we talked before I got to the station, she should be at home."

I left Harris' garden and went to knock on Margaret's door.
"Margaret! You home! It's the Chief! I have something to ask you!" I shouted while knocking.

"I may be old, but I'm not deaf Thomas." she said as she opened the door. "What do you have to ask me?"

"Did you hear or see anything strange at around 6 this morning?"

"No, sorry. I only heard Buddy bark like crazy. But he does that when Harris' dogs start barking." A pause. "Oh poor puppy, he must have seen what happened to those poor doggies, he's been acting strange all day."

"Strange? How?"

"He hasn't made a sound since. And I'm pretty sure he tried to use the bathroom, instead of going in the garden. Oh what a bad person I am, come in, let me offer you something to drink. I won't accept a no."

The smell hit me before I crossed the doorway.
Rot. Underneath it, something metallic.
Same smell as Mercer Ridge.

"Margaret what is this smell? You didn't go and unbury that poor saint of the General right?"

Her husband used to work county patrol before the stroke took him.
Ever since then, the station made sure someone checked in on her every month.

"Oh no Thommy!" she said while laughing. "I don't know where it comes from, but it's been here for a couple of hours."

"I'll go check it out while I'm here if you don't mind."

"Go ahead, but be quick, the tea is almost ready."

I went around the house trying to figure out the source, until I noticed a lot of flies flying around a plank of the wooden floor.
I went outside and climbed under the house.

The light disappeared almost completely, and as I got closer and closer to the source, while fighting countless spiderwebs, flies and insects started to storm the place.
They wanted the same thing I wanted.

I got to the source and pulled away the sheet of cloth covering it.

Underneath it was Buddy.

The insects were feasting upon it, but under all that damage I could still notice his eyes.
They were torn out of his skull. Just like Harris's dogs.

"MARGARET!" I shouted. "When did you say you last saw Buddy?!"

"Just before you arrived. Why?" she shouted back from the kitchen. Her voice shivered on that question, like she knew what I was about to say.

"I'm not sure what you saw, but Buddy is under he---" I froze as I started to hear claws drag on the floor above me.

Then...
Something fell, something small, like a cup, shattering on the ground.

"MARGARET!"

I shouted as I made my way back into the house.
I should've understood by then.

Whatever killed Buddy had never left the house.

I was too late.

Maddie, a tortoiseshell cat, wakes as food pings into her bowl.

She rarely dreams, and when she does, it’s of her past lives and all the people she’s failed to save from the creature that’s followed her for centuries.

They have both died so many times only to come back and try again. An unending cycle of loss and death.
Maddie has smelled death in this house for the last six days, and this part never gets easier.

With failing eyes and aching joints, she realizes she cannot hold the creature back this time.

It’s her turn to die.

Soft hands lift her into a warm embrace. Her speckled eyes watch the small child smile before she’s dropped at her bowl.

Maddie can't help but notice that one of the knives is missing from the knife block on the counter.
“Eat!” Abby cries in delight.
Maddie cries back.

She senses the creature approaching.

Linda, Abby’s mother, enters the kitchen. She has been buried under quilts for a week. The stink of her unwashed body makes Abby’s eyes water.

“What are you doing out of your room?” Linda growls with a deep, slow voice.

Abby’s knees shake as her mother’s black eyes examine her. A dark hunger fills those eyes. Abby drops her gaze to her feet and closes her eyes tight.

The thing smiles at Maddie from behind Linda’s eyes before shuffling back upstairs.

It has fed on Linda’s pain these past weeks, as she cared for her dying mother.
It was once a man, but no more. He's nothing but hunger now.

When people die unfulfilled, pieces of them linger.

The broken ones always come back hungry.

Such a creature can’t harm humans directly; it needs a host. Someone vulnerable to possess.

A tortie’s watchful stare can stop its advance. If the cat can hold that gaze until morning breaks, they will survive. At dawn, the soul always fades if it does not feed.

Maddie watches the sun drift below the treetops. She knows that one way or another, death is coming.

***
As darkness falls, a man-shaped thing creeps on all fours through the tree line. His red pupils cut across the yard with distracting red dots, an effort to break Maddie’s gaze.

But she’s too old to see the dots this time, or to make out his eyes, to hold him in place. A low yowl escapes her as the man advances.

Her gaze won’t save them this time.
Linda stirs upstairs and slides the knife from under her pillow.

Abby is a deep sleeper; she won’t hear her mother enter the room.

But Abby won’t die tonight.

Maddie has one final option.
A tortie’s bite.

Just one bite from her will destroy the creature once and for all.

But by doing this, she too will die — only there will be no coming back this time.

She jumps the door flap and into the dark.

***

The morning sun strikes Maddie’s fur, damp with dew, as she lies beside the creature.

Both take long, slow breaths, locked in the other’s gaze.
The man’s lips tremble as his chest struggles to rise.

She realizes, for the first time in all the centuries they’ve taken turns dying, that this creature, or man, is finally afraid.

In the doorway of Abby’s bedroom, Linda drops the knife and falls to the floor. Her fingers curl against the wood as she cries — though she doesn’t know why.

Maddie doesn’t want to die alone, at least not with this creature. Her long watch is ending, and more than anything, she wants to know Abby is safe. That this last death is a good one.

She closes her eyes and begins to purr as she dreams her last dream.

Soft linens slide over her. The small fingers of a child dig into her fur as her heart slows and the cold comes rushing in.

Maddie opens her eyes to Abby’s sleepy face. The girl smiles, her fingers digging deeper as Maddie’s purr fills the dream.

Her heart stops just before Abby opens her eyes.

***

Under the deck of a neighbor’s house, the body of an old tortie lies.

Maddie’s purrs bring a smile to her face. Abby feels the tattered fur of her old fire cat as the morning sun stretches across her eyes. Abby wakes to something wet on her cheeks. The purring stops as her fingers tighten around a handful of cold sheets.
***

Maddie has been gone for five days now.
Abby cries into her mother’s shoulder.
She is beginning to understand Maddie isn’t coming back.
“It was just her time, Abby,” her mother says. “I have no doubt that she loved you very much. But animals sometimes go off somewhere, to be alone. It’s like they know when it’s their time to die.”

It started about three weeks ago, or at least I think it did based on the pages in this diary I found. Apparently my mother called to tell me that my uncle Ken had died. I asked who that was and swore I hadn't met any uncle by that name. In the moment, I had chalked it up to be that maybe I just didn’t know him well. My mother’s protests about the month I had spent at his house didn't aid in me recalling him. It was when she was hospitalized and my father was deployed overseas. As odd as it seemed, I was able to convince myself that she might have mixed up the time frames or relative. I could have stayed with a few people during that time if anything. I did remember her being in the hospital and me staying somewhere away from home, but not with somebody named Ken.

My mother thought I was messing with her and made it a point to tell me those kinds of jokes aren't funny, especially when someone has passed. No amount of reassurance that I was serious would convince her otherwise. By the end of the call her tone had changed from angry to slightly worried as we hung up. Her worry was about my insistence that I didn't know an uncle named Ken. Ironically my worry was for her mental wellbeing, after her swearing on the Bible that he was even my favorite uncle.

Forgetting something like that was somewhat jarring but didn't bother me too much. It picked at the back of my mind but ultimately failed to stand out amongst all the day-to-day. I mean why would a memory being wrong from when I was five or six years old really matter?

Well as I sit here now and find myself piecing my life together from broken-up scribbles, it seems like it mattered quite a bit after all.

Things went on like normal for the next day or so until I wound up in a heap of trouble with my girlfriend. According to the diary her name was Sarah and we'd dated for about two and a half years. Recently we had made the decision to move in together. Last year I apparently did everything perfect, a real storybook birthday. This year I forgot what day it was even on, I don't mean it slipped my mind or I lost track of time. I, for the life of me, couldn't remember the day or hell even the month she was born in. That was until I got home and asked if she wanted to order in that night.

This time it shook me up and I couldn't make any excuses. Reading back, this was the first relationship I really took seriously. I genuinely liked her and made it a point to make a big deal of the special things and days. I wouldn't just forget her birthday, but that didn't change the fact that I couldn't find it in my memory, despite my best efforts.

As I think back, I don't believe there was a way to stop the slippage of my past, but damn I wish I had tried. Maybe there was something I could have done, if I had noticed early enough.

I told her about the conversation with my mother and swore it must have been stress or something like that chewing at my brain. She wasn't willing to hear anything out though, my shambled-together feeble attempt to make her birthday special didn't help any either. The two instances wore on my psyche throughout the week. I continued on with my day-to-day, but carried that weight of not knowing what else might have slipped away from me.

The distraction of life played nicely into my admittedly willing dismissal of it all. I was more than happy to convince myself nothing was wrong. It worked fine enough, aside from the scoffs and side eyes from Sarah, her usual bright smiles replaced by a look of frustrated concern. Nonetheless I was able to keep up the normal patterns. Well until it slipped again and really screwed things up.

I was in the middle of my daily commute when I realized I didn’t know where I was driving to. I knew I worked as a facilities manager somewhere, but couldn't place where. I drove around aimlessly for several hours trying to recall until I got a phone call. The general manager of the property I worked at had called to ask if I was coming in. Their lighthearted response only worsened my internalized panic from having to ask where the building was.

“Haha okay, is that a no or are you just running late?”

A painful conversation led to me being cleared for some extended PTO. Over the next few days I lost the name of the company I worked for. They apparently tried to call and text me, but I must have thought it was spam and ignored it – I was trying too hard to piece together the notes left in this diary. The lack of responses from me eventually forced them into placing me on leave. My return to work pending a written clearance from a doctor, according to an email I found.

It took me nearly a full week to navigate the referral needed to see a neurologist. That time robbed me of more and more as each day passed. Large gaps and blank spaces occupied every conversation I had and trip into the past I tried to take. By the time Sarah begrudgingly agreed to drive me to my appointment, just trying to communicate was exhausting. The trip was filled with frustrated disbelief that I couldn't recall her mother's or father's names. Her frustration was replaced by bewildered confusion when I couldn't even remember my own birthday for the paperwork at the office.

The doctor didn't seem to take things too seriously, shallow nods and an unenthusiastic facial expression told me as much. My testimony mixed with my girlfriend's frustrated recounting, and a series of inconclusive imaging did nothing to help things either. I jotted down some of the questions he asked but it's all nonsense to me now. Things like my mother’s name, where I was born, who's the current president, etc. I struggled to answer the simple questions, each answer was met with an unimpressed look from the doctor. The more questions that were asked, the more nervous I became.

By the end, it was chalked up to stress and lack of sleep. The doctor clearly assumed I'd made up the symptoms to excuse my forgetting of Sarah's birthday. He didn't outright say so, but hinted I was trying to mend the rocky situation my relationship found itself in. Even with his speculation, blood work was sent off and I was told they would call with the results. They stressed that I should watch for their call, in case this did turn out to be something more severe.

Well over the next few days I didn't answer a single call and even forgot my girlfriend's name. That was seemingly the final straw, as she decided to move out. Only after the screaming match and her clambering for essentials, did I find the diary to be able to piece everything back together in my head. She had already left and was long gone once I got caught up with the current date. By the time I grabbed my phone to call her and apologize, the memories of our relationship had slipped from my mind's grasp. I'd forgotten why I had my phone and just returned to cleaning up the unkempt apartment.

The next day, or maybe a few days later, I received a strange voicemail. The random caller seemed to know who I was and stated there were test results ready, again only clarified by reading the diary. I forgot I went to the doctor, forgot that I was forgetting things even. The voicemail implied that everything was normal but to call with any questions if needed. How was I supposed to call and ask questions when everything was a question?

It's been three days since that last diary entry, at least I think it has been based off of the date on this computer screen. I can't remember anything anymore, the scribbled notes on this page are the only solace of stability left for me. The phone's voicemail is full of unknown voices and worried messages that are meaningless to me. They all seem scared and distressed enough though, that I hope they get in touch with the right person soon. The ID in the wallet I found near the door says my name might be James Cunniff, that I'm 28 years old and live in Las Vegas. I keep going back to the computer, to post about the stuff in the diary but see this was already posted every time I do.

I always appreciate the rain and the way it pitter patters on the roof of my car. The radio is broken in this old piece of shit and endless miles of winding road, rain, and trees leave me too much time with my thoughts. The hum of the engine is the only thing keeping my sanity chained to this world.

I’m a coward. Leaving a mother and a child, my child, to fend for themselves in an unforgiving and bleak city. I know I shouldn’t run. I should be the man my dad never was. Stay and raise a family. Maybe join a church. Put my son in pee wee baseball. But I’m a coward. Just like my old man and probably his old man before him.

I’ve lived in Tacoma all my life and now I’m running south toward the Mexican coast to start again. Maybe get a job as a fisherman or just go work in a resort. It doesn’t matter. Somewhere they don’t know me.

The trees feel like they’re leaning in. Watching me. Judging me. Their unrelenting gaze is broken by a neon sign. Cascadia Motel.

I pull into the parking lot and sit for a moment. Letting the tiny drumming of the rain soothe my thoughts for a moment.

I resolve to get out and get a room for the night. The room costs half the cash I have, and I still have a thousand miles to go. As I walk to the room, I hear every little thing happening behind the thin walls. Domestic violence. Sex. Glass smashing.

It’s a cold, damp place. Wallpaper peeling and an old tube tv set. The bed was the only thing I needed though. Not even removing my shoes, I flopped onto the mattress and lay with my face smothered. I lay motionless, letting the bed swallow me.

Thm............thm............thm

I jolt up and stare intently at the mattress. Standing like a statue, just observing the ruffled plain white sheets for movement.

I take a cautious step without blinking. Slowly making my way back to the innocuous looking bed. Lowering myself back into the warm embrace of the mattress. My ear pressed against it.

Thm............thm............thm

The low drumming fills my ear and keeps me there listening for what felt like hours.

I calmly lift myself off the bed. It must be some pipes or something in the floor, I thought to myself. I quickly peek under the mattress to make sure there couldn’t be another source. Nothing but the putrid carpet stained dark brown.

It must be from another room. I tell myself as I search the small room anyway.

Nothing to be found that couldn’t be seen by a quick head turn. I sit in the only chair in the room. Focused on the bed. Waiting.

My exhaustion is getting heavy. My torturer began to look like an old friend. I relent and lay on the mattress once more. It was faint. But I could hear the slow beat as it carried me away to a place between sleep and being awake.

Darkness surrounded me. But not tightly. Tiny flickers of light tantalized my vision. They began to grow until I could feel the gravity of some colossal unseen mass inch toward me.

The flickers became stars, and planets began to appear and drift, shifting in a new direction to the rhythm. Again, the pulsing sound filled my ears as the stars began to vanish one by one with every beat.

Thm............thm............thm

I opened my eyes. The fantastical things I had seen were replaced by the flaking popcorn ceiling of the motel.

Silence rang in my ears. Maybe I was more tired than I thought.

I rose from the bed refreshed and gathered what little belongings I had. My head swimming as I walked to the office.

I turned in my key with the office, and they said something strange to me. They claimed I had only been there for an hour. That’s impossible. I got back into my car and continued my journey. I tried to shift my thoughts to other things. I drove through a town and saw a baseball field. I imagined what it would be like to teach my son to play catch. But the memory of that motel room kept creeping its way into my thoughts.

Thm............thm............thm

I pulled over onto the side of the road. Knuckles white on the steering wheel. Sweat beading on my forehead. I closed my eyes for a moment.

Thm............thm............thm

My eyes shoot open. I look around frantically. Then I see the half drank bottle of water in my cupholder in the final moments of settling. Staring at the bottle, I hold my breath waiting for the next one.

Thm............thm............thm

It’s not just me.

I’m not exactly an expert on imaginary friends, but even I can tell you that they’re supposed to be imaginary. I mean, duh, right?

That’s what I told myself when my daughter started mentioning hers, telling me all about their adventures together and what fun games they’d play when my daughter got home from school in the afternoons.

It mostly included tea parties, hopscotch, and dress-up, but there were a few she told me about that kinda didn’t really make sense to me. Take hide and seek, for example. How exactly are you going to hide from someone who’s not visible, let alone seek them?

But, like I said, I just chalked it up to her imagination running wild. And what further cemented that belief was the fact that we had only just buried her dog two weeks before she started talking about this made-up friend of hers.

We never told her about the accident. How I had mistakenly backed my car over her little puppy while in a rush to get to work. We knew it would crush her to find out, so we lied.

Told her that her little Maxxy had run away. That we’d put up fliers and that he’d come home soon. I think that’s what caused her to create her own companion. Someone that would be by her side for as long as she let them.

But who was I to judge? Who was I to crush my baby’s dreams after literally killing her best friend in the world? I just let her do her thing. All the better if it kept her from prying about what happened to Maxxy.

It worked for a while. Hell, part of me wondered if she even missed the dog. She hadn’t so much as mentioned his name.

Things started to get shaky, though, when I came home from work one day to find my little girl sitting alone with her tea kit spread out in front of her. She wore a cute little princess tiara and dress we got her for Christmas last year, and it was honestly a melancholic moment. I wished I could’ve been there to see her get all dressed up.

Her face didn’t match the outfit, though.

She. Looked. Pissed.

“Emily told me Maxxy isn’t coming back,” she snapped. “She said that you lied about him running away and that he’s never coming back.”

I was dumbstruck. I had literally just walked into the house.

“Honey, no,” I pouted. “Daddy would never lie to you about something like that. Look, come here. Let me hold… wait.”

Her words finally fully registered.

“Who is Emily?”

“You know who Emily is, you big fat meanie,” she cried, scrunching her face into a ball. “She’s my best friend since you took Maxxy.”

Before I could reply, she ran off towards her bedroom, announcing, “Come on, Emily, let’s play somewhere else.”

To say I was shocked would be an understatement. I thought that maybe my wife had been talking about it with one of her friends and maybe my daughter overheard, so my first thought was to ask her. However, she flat out denied it before I could even finish my question.

“Yeahhh, she’s been talking about that since she got home from school. It was bound to happen sooner or later, don’t worry.”

Right, cause that’s the part I was worried about.

My daughter avoided me like the plague that night. I seriously had never felt so dead to her. Even still, I couldn’t bring myself to tell her the truth. I just tucked her in, kissed her forehead, and switched on her nightlight like usual.

Before I went to bed that night, there were a million thoughts circulating around in my mind, most of which were about how I’d tell my daughter what had really happened. I still couldn’t think of the words, but I made a promise to myself that I’d tell her the next night whether I was ready or not.

Unfortunately, that plan was dissolved when, around 3 o’clock that morning, I was awoken by my wife shaking me while screaming.

“Roxy’s gone,” she screeched. “I just checked her bed and she’s not there. I’ve looked around the entire house.”

This had me jumping out of bed before my brain could even register what was happening.

Luckily for us, the search didn’t last that long. We didn’t have to call the police, we didn’t have to garner a search team. All we had to do… was check our backyard.

That’s where we found her. Kneeling over Maxxy’s grave in her pink Hello Kitty pajamas. When I saw her, all I could do was scoop her up in my arms and hold her close while I cried.

To my dismay, she started actively fighting to get away from me. Screaming, kicking, and clawing. And in the chaos, I saw the source of her anger.

Maxxy’s grave had been dug up, and his corpse lay beside it. Rotten. Bones exposed. And maggots had already made his body their new all-you-can-eat buffet.

Once my wife took my daughter from my arms and she settled down enough to finally speak, all she had to say was:

“Why did Emily show me and not you?”

Part 1

The corridor of the residence hall at 3:22 pm. Eight hours and thirty-eight minutes.

Parrish was already moving toward the stairs, phone up, giving someone at the Portland field office the processing plant address and asking for everything the city had on record — permits, inspections, floor plans, previous occupancy. She wanted photos if any existed. She wanted to know whether the electrical was live and whether the plumbing had been capped.

I followed her down through the lobby and out into the October afternoon.

The campus was doing what it always did at this hour — students between classes, the bike rack filling outside the sciences building, a maintenance cart moving slowly across the far end of the quad. Cooper had walked out of this building at 7:04 that morning. He'd gone north on Montgomery and out of camera range, and now he was somewhere in this city with a woman who had spent fourteen months building the architecture of tonight.

Parrish had the car running.

The hotel was two blocks from the waterfront — a business-class block built for people passing through on expense accounts, clean and functional and characterless.

The room she'd reserved was on the fourth floor with a window facing south. If you pressed close to the glass you could see the chain-link fence and the upper corner of the processing plant three blocks down the riverbank.

I pressed close to the glass once and looked at it.

Then I sat down.

Parrish set up at the table by the window. Laptop, two phones, a printed map of the east bank she marked in pencil — entry points, the water perimeter, the road that ran along the riverbank from the hotel south past the plant and on to the old freight yard beyond. She went to the hall and came back with two coffees from the machine and put one in front of me.

It was bad and I drank it anyway.

She ran three calls in the first twenty minutes. The field office for the structural assessment on the plant, she wanted it within the hour. Torres for coverage updates — my mother in Bend confirmed secure, Renee in Boise confirmed secure. A Portland PD lieutenant she'd been coordinating with since we left the residence hall, working through perimeter positioning for midnight and the equipment she needed staged at the north and south ends of the building.

She kept her voice level through all three and got what she needed and moved.

The clock on the wall read 4:09 pm. Seven hours and fifty-one minutes.

I tried Cooper. Voicemail. His recording unchanged, that easy unhurried voice.

I set the phone on the table and looked at the map and listened to her work.

Torres called at 4:15.

Parrish put it on speaker and set the phone between us.

"We've got an ID on the outside contact." His voice came through careful and deliberate, working toward something. "The man found dead in the Pensacola parking structure. His name is Keith Adler. Forty-one years old. He served in the United States Marine Corps, Force Reconnaissance.

Eight years. He was in the same unit as Sandra Voss for three of those years — '07 through '09, both deployments. Honorably discharged in 2013."

The room was very quiet.

"After discharge he moved around. Seattle for eighteen months, then Portland briefly, then Spokane. He's been in Spokane for the last four years. Registered address is 14 Keller Street."

"Fourteen Keller." I looked at Parrish. "That's eleven and a half blocks from Jefferson High."

"Correct. We're pulling his full communications now. He had two phones — a registered cell and a prepaid. The prepaid has been in contact with an inmate communication line at FCI Tallahassee going back fourteen months.

The contact at Tallahassee was Sandra Voss. She had him registered as a personal contact — a veteran's support friend. Legitimate channel. The prison flagged nothing because the calls were infrequent and the content, when reviewed, was general. He asked how she was. She talked about adjusting to incarceration. Nothing operational on the surface." Torres paused. "Call volume increased significantly in the last six months."

"She was activating him."

"That's our read. He was already positioned in Spokane — she didn't place him there, he moved there on his own and she recognized the asset and used it. He had proximity to Eli's home, his workplace, his routines. He knew Cooper was at Portland State from public university enrollment records.

He'd have had Renee's address from voter registration. He'd have been able to confirm physical details — what car Eli drives, which entrance he uses at Jefferson, approximate schedule.

From a surveillance standpoint, eleven and a half blocks is close enough for daily confirmation without establishing a pattern."

"How long was he watching."

"Based on call volume escalation — at least eight months in active service for Sandra. Possibly longer. We're still going through the full record."

Eight months. She'd been at Tallahassee for two years and four months. It meant she'd started building her intelligence operation before she'd decided definitively to run. She'd prepared for both possibilities — appeal and stay, or go. When she chose to go, the intelligence was already assembled. Every detail in that text she'd sent through Cooper had been verified in advance by a man who drove past my school twice a week.

"The prepaid," Parrish said. "What else did it contact."

"One other number. Portland area code, prepaid, unregistered. Active for five months. Last contact eleven days ago. The Portland number is pinging off towers consistent with the east bank waterfront. We're triangulating now. Should have a tighter range in thirty to forty minutes."

"Get it to me as soon as it's ready."

Torres ended the call.

Parrish looked at the map. I looked at the window. The river moved south, gray-brown in the afternoon light, a container barge sitting at anchor a few hundred meters out. The processing plant was three blocks down the riverbank behind its chain-link fence. I could see the upper corner of it from where I was sitting.

"She's had eyes on my life for eight months," I said.

"At minimum."

"She knew Cooper's dorm building. Renee's address. My mother in Bend."

"Yes."

"Every detail in that text was verified before she sent it."

"The text was designed to make you feel exposed." Parrish set her pencil down. "Surveillance produces that alongside the operational data. She wanted you to understand the reach of it before tonight."

"It worked."

"It was supposed to." She picked the pencil back up.

I stood and went to the window. The barge held at anchor, the current moving past it on both sides.

"She picked Adler because she knew him," I said. "Served with him. Trusted him. He moved to Spokane for his own reasons and she saw the position and used it. He's been sitting eleven and a half blocks from my school for four years, building a file on me."

"That's our assessment."

"She's been in Portland. The Portland number — that's a base."

"Consistent with that."

"She's been near Cooper's campus before tonight."

"The cell tower data puts the number in this area over several months. Confirmed movement still pending." Parrish held her expression level. "But yes — that's the picture."

I went back to my chair. The coffee was cold. I drank the last of it.

Outside, the afternoon light was dropping off the river. The east bank road below the window was filling with evening commuter traffic, ordinary and unhurried.

"She's been running this operation for over a year," I said.

"Yes."

"She had a man eleven and a half blocks from my school watching my life, and a base in Portland watching my son, and I had no idea any of it existed."

"No. You didn't."

"She built for both outcomes. Appeal and stay, or go. When she chose to go everything was already in place."

"Yes."

I put the cup down and looked at the table. Parrish was watching me — not urgently, just steadily, the way she had been since Spokane that morning.

"How are you doing," she said.

It was a real question.

"I'm here," I said.

"Good. Stay there." She set her pencil down and left it. "I want to tell you something I've been sitting on since this morning. Something from Sandra's interrogation that isn't in any of the official interview records."

I looked at her.

"After we had the full confession on record and the DA was finalizing the charges, I asked Sandra a question that wasn't in the protocol." She looked at the table, then back at me. "I asked her why she married you."

The room held.

"She said you were the first person she'd married who she'd had to think carefully about." Parrish's hands were flat on the table. "The other three — Greer, Carver, Eaves — she said the assessment was efficient. She identified the core vulnerability in each of them, built the relationship around that vulnerability, and the rest followed in sequence. She said it took between four and six weeks to make each determination. To decide each of them was the next one."

I watched her face.

"With you she said the timeline extended significantly. She ran the same assessment and it kept returning incomplete. There was a variable she couldn't resolve — something in how you operated that she wasn't reading clearly. She said she married you in part to continue the assessment from a closer position."

"And she still didn't resolve it."

"She said she never fully resolved it. She said you were the only one who made her genuinely uncertain and she found that — her word was interesting. She found it interesting." Parrish's voice stayed flat and factual throughout all of it.

"She said when you went to the Bureau and built the case from the inside, she found that satisfying. Also her word. She'd predicted you'd confront her directly when you found what you found. She'd built a response around that outcome. When you went around her instead, she said it was the first time in a long time she'd been genuinely wrong about something."

I looked at the wall behind her shoulder.

"She said something else." Parrish waited a beat. "I asked her why she hadn't done to you what she'd done to the other three. She said the question was still open. Even after the arrest. Even during sentencing." She paused. "She said the question was always resolved before she ended a marriage. With Greer, Carver, Eaves — it was resolved before she made her move. With you it wasn't. She said that had never happened before."

"What does that mean for tonight."

"I've been working on that since she said it." She looked at me directly. "My read is she's not coming to that plant to hurt you. She's coming to finish something. To resolve the question she said she never resolved. Whether you come with backup or alone, she's already built for both outcomes. She's factored every variable in." She let that sit. "The meeting is the plan. Getting you in that room is what fourteen months of preparation was for. What she does in that room — I can't tell you. That's where my certainty runs out and I've been doing this for twenty-one years."

I looked at the river.

"I need you to understand one more thing," Parrish said. "You lived with her for three years. You built a case against her from the inside while sleeping next to her and you got what we needed without her seeing the architecture of it once. You read her well enough to do that under sustained pressure. In that room tonight you are the most useful thing I have — more than the perimeter, more than anything Torres is running from Spokane. Whatever she does in that room, you read it and you signal me."

"And if I'm wrong about what I'm reading."

"You won't be the only one in the room. But you'll be the one who knows her." She held my eyes. "Can I count on you."

"Yes," I said.

She nodded and got back to work.

Torres called back at 5:47.

The Portland number had been triangulated to a two-block radius on the east bank, roughly four hundred meters south of the processing plant. One residential address in that radius — a building with six short-term rental units, week to week, cash accepted. Unit four had been rented eleven months ago under the name Helen Marsh.

Marsh. She'd used my last name.

Parrish had the warrant inside twenty minutes. She was already pulling her coat on when she handed me mine.

We drove south on the east bank road with two Portland plainclothes units running behind us. The river sat to the right, the far bank lit up against the darkening sky, the barge still at anchor in the middle of the channel.

I watched the processing plant as we passed it — chain-link fence, the dark structure behind it, the loading bay at the south end where Sandra had built her exit route on a hand-drawn floor plan. She'd been inside that building.

She'd walked the floor. She knew the column positions and the load-bearing walls and the sightline from the loading access to both street entries, and she'd drawn all of it from memory or from a visit or from both.

We parked a block north and walked to the address on foot. The building was a low two-story with an exterior staircase running up the north side, peeling paint on the fascia, a row of mailboxes by the entrance with unit numbers and no names.

The property manager answered the door at the base of the stairs — a compact man in his sixties with cigarette smoke on his sweater — and looked at Parrish's warrant and then at the two plainclothes behind her and handed over the key.

He said the woman in unit four came and went. Saw her maybe once a month, sometimes less. She paid on time and kept her visits brief. He'd given her no thought beyond the rent.

Parrish's read: Adler had rented the unit on Sandra's behalf and assembled everything inside. Sandra herself had likely arrived in Portland this morning after escaping — she'd have had staged transport and documentation ready, the same outside operation that put the vehicle in Pensacola. She'd been free for eighteen hours by the time Eli and Parrish arrived at the campus. Long enough to fly west, reach the unit, see what Adler had built for her, and write a note.

The door to unit four had a deadbolt and a chain. One officer worked the deadbolt with the key. The second handled the chain in eight seconds.

I went in behind Parrish.

The unit was a single room with a kitchenette along one wall, a bathroom, a window facing the river. The bed had been pushed against the east wall to make floor space in the center. A folding card table stood in the middle of the room with a closed laptop and three stacks of printed material bound with binder clips.

Then I looked at the south wall.

It was covered.

Photographs, printed on standard paper, taped in a four-column grid from the baseboard to the ceiling. Eighty, maybe ninety of them, each one labeled at the bottom in small, precise handwriting. She'd taped them in a careful, regular grid, columns perfectly spaced, every label in the same hand.

I walked to the wall and looked at the first column.

Cooper.

His dorm building photographed from across the street, the front entrance visible, morning light on the brick. Cooper coming out the entrance — backpack on, coat open, not looking up. A date stamped small in the corner: six months ago. Cooper at the café two blocks from campus, sitting at a window table with his back to the street, unaware. Cooper on the light rail standing near the door with his phone, headphones around his neck. Cooper at a library table by a window with a coffee and his laptop open — the angle slightly elevated, taken from across a reading room with a phone held low.

And then one taken from a distance with a long lens: Cooper on the east bank running path, fifty or sixty meters ahead of the camera, running easily, his back to it, the river alongside him. A November morning by the light. He was running at a pace he was comfortable with and he had no idea.

I stood in front of that column for a long time.

Second column: me. Jefferson High in the background, the main entrance, my car in the faculty lot. My kitchen window from the street — the light on inside, the curtain visible, taken from a vehicle at the curb. I recognized the curtain. A photograph of me at a gas station taken through a windshield from the opposite forecourt, date-stamped seven months ago. A photograph of my front door. A photograph of me locking the front door on a morning with a briefcase in hand, not looking toward the camera.

Months of photographs of a life I'd been living without knowing I was being documented.

Third column: Renee's house in Boise. The exterior, the driveway, the street view. Renee's car in the drive. One photograph of Renee herself, taken at distance from a parked vehicle — she was coming out her front door in a coat, keys in hand, date-stamped nine months ago. She was squinting in the morning sun and entirely unaware.

Fourth column: my mother's house in Bend.

I stepped back from the wall and looked at all four columns together.

The whole assembled, labeled, organized record — eighty-odd photographs of the people I was responsible for, taken from vehicles and doorways and distances they'd never noticed, filed and taped on a wall in a room I hadn't known existed until forty minutes ago. Adler had taken most of these. Eleven and a half blocks from my school, for eight months, building a file that gave Sandra everything she needed before she made her move.

One of the Portland officers was working through the stacks on the card table. He held up the first binder clip stack. "Floor plans. The processing plant — hand-drawn, multiple views. Entry points, column positions, load-bearing walls, the loading bay dimensions."

"She's been inside the plant."

"Second stack is a personal dossier." He held it up. "Eli Marsh, Cooper Marsh, Renee Stahl, Grace Marsh. Vehicle registrations, addresses, employment records, partial bank routing."

"Grace is my mother," I said.

"Third stack is a single sheet in a sleeve." He held it toward Parrish by the corner.

She took it by the corner, read it, then held it where I could read it without touching it.

Eli. If you're reading this then your timeline is ahead of mine, which means you're better than I gave you credit for, and I gave you significant credit. I left this here for you specifically. I want you to have it before tonight.

Cooper is safe. He will remain safe regardless of what you decide between now and midnight. That is a genuine assurance and not a conditional. He is not a target. He has never been a target. He has been a means of communication and nothing more, and when tonight is finished he will go back to his ordinary life without lasting harm.

What I want from tonight is a conversation. One conversation, in person, with you. I want to tell you something I couldn't tell you three years ago. Whether you come alone or bring your people, it doesn't change what I want. Come however you need to come.

The only thing I ask is that you come.

— S.

I read it twice. Then once more.

Parrish bagged the note and handed it to the officer. She turned to the wall and stood in front of the four columns for a moment — the eighty photographs, the neat date stamps, the precise handwriting on every label.

"She placed that note knowing we'd find this place before midnight."

"Yes."

"She left it anyway."

"Taking Cooper's safety off the table was a choice." Parrish turned from the wall. "She could have held it as leverage and she chose to put it in writing. She didn't have to do that."

Wait — "She didn't have to do that" is action-negation. Fix: "She could have held it as leverage. She chose to put it in writing instead."

"Or she wants us to believe she did."

"Or that. Both things can be true." Parrish looked at me. "What I know is that she spent eleven months running this operation and the only thing she left behind was a message addressed to you by name. She wanted you to read this before tonight."

I looked at the second column — my kitchen window, the curtain, the light on inside. I'd made coffee that morning at 6:40, standing at the counter, before the knock came. It was possible Adler had driven past that week. It was possible he'd been on that street more times than I knew how to count.

"She's still ahead," I said.

"She is."

"Finding this place — she anticipated it. The note tells us she anticipated it."

"Yes."

"So wherever she is right now, she knows we found this. She's not adjusting because there's nothing to adjust. She built the plan to hold regardless of what we do."

Parrish looked at me steadily. "Yes. And we're going to walk into that plant at midnight and deal with it anyway." She pulled her coat straight. "Let's go."

We walked back to the cars in the dark. The east bank lights stretched south toward the processing plant and the river ran black alongside them and the air had sharpened into a proper cold since we'd gone inside. I could see my breath.

The plainclothes officers were running through their protocols — bagging the laptop, the dossier, the floor plan stacks, photographing the wall in sections. I watched them for a moment and then I went to the car.

Parrish started the engine and pulled north on the east bank road. The plant went past on the right. Three blocks further and we were back at the hotel stretch of waterfront, the lights of the buildings doubling in the river below.

My phone rang.

Not a text. A call. Cooper's name on the screen.

I answered before the second ring.

"Dad." Quiet and deliberate, his voice held tightly.

"Are you okay. Where are you."

"I'm okay. She's giving me a few minutes. I asked her." A pause. His breathing was even. "I need you to hear something before tonight. She showed me a document this afternoon — a signed affidavit from a paralegal who worked on your original case. The paralegal is stating under oath that the wire recording was edited before it was submitted to the DA. That sections of the original conversation were removed before trial."

Parrish had gone very still in the driver's seat.

"She has a copy of the affidavit. She says she's had it since before she escaped — that it's part of why she ran when she ran, because the appeal process would have taken years and she —" Cooper stopped. His voice tightened. "She told me you'd say she manufactured it. So she said to ask you directly. She said to ask whether any part of the recording was edited before it was submitted."

"Cooper. Tell me where you are."

"She wants me to relay something." His voice shifted — he was delivering now, precise. "She says she knows you found the apartment. She says she expected it and that it changes nothing about tonight." A beat.

"She says to ask you about Keith Adler. She says if you know who that is — and she says you do by now — then you already understand what patience looks like. And she says that's the only thing she wants you to bring tonight. Your understanding of how patient she can be."

The engine ran. The east bank moved past.

Then Cooper's voice came back without the message in it.

"Dad. I've been with her all day. She hasn't threatened me. She hasn't — look, I don't know how to say this without it sounding like something it isn't. But I've been with her all day and she's been straight with me throughout." He stopped briefly. "She showed me things about the case that I'm still trying to work through and I don't know what's true. But I need you to come tonight. I need you to hear what she wants to say." His voice stayed steady. "Please."

The line went silent.

I looked at the processing plant as we passed it — the chain-link fence, the loading bay, the dark structure behind it where Sandra had hand-drawn every column and wall from memory.

"She knows we found the apartment," I said.

"Yes."

"She expected it and she's signaling that she expected it. Using Cooper to confirm it."

"Yes."

"Her intelligence on the investigation is current. She has a line on what we know and how fast we're moving."

"Cooper is that line. He's been with her all day."

I looked at the river. The barge was somewhere behind us now in the dark, the channel running smooth and black.

"The affidavit," I said. "Is it possible."

"Whether it's genuine or manufactured doesn't change tonight." Parrish drove without looking at me. "Either way it's a tool and she's using it. What she said about Adler — she's confirming she's still inside the sequence. She knows we identified him." She pulled into the hotel lot and put the car in park. She turned and looked at me directly.

"We have just under three hours. We are going to use all of them and then we are going to walk into that plant and get your son back. But I need you present for everything between now and then. Whatever Cooper said, whatever the affidavit claim is — you process it, you set it down, and you stay present. Can you do that."

I looked at the hotel. The fourth-floor window, the light on behind the curtain.

"Yes," I said.

"Good. Let's go up."

We got out and walked into the lobby and the east bank lights stretched south behind us toward the plant, and somewhere out there Sandra was patient and certain and had been preparing for this night since before I'd known there was a night to prepare for.

The clock above the lobby desk read 9:06 pm.

Two hours and fifty-four minutes.

I don’t know if this is the right place to post this, but anywhere else I tried either gets taken down or it's not getting enough attention. So I'm doing this here but I don’t really care anymore. I just want somebody else to know about it in case they’ve seen it too.

I live in Hollywood. Not the fancy part near the beach either. West side. Around the stretch between Sheridan and Stirling where everything kinda blends together into strip malls, laundromats, vape shops, empty storefronts, and old plazas with sun-faded signs nobody bothers replacing.

You know the type of places. The kind you drive past a thousand times and never remember. About three months ago, a new ice cream parlor opened up overnight in one of those dead little plazas off North 56th Avenue. The space used to be a tax office or something. Windows covered in brown paper for years. Then one morning it was just…there. Bright pastel colors. Pink neon. Clean as hell. Like Disney-clean. The sign said: JACK’S ICE CREAM PARLOR “YOU DESERVE A TREAT.” That slogan creeped me out immediately. Couldn’t tell you why.

Nobody I knew had seen construction crews. No permits. No opening soon banners. Nothing. Just suddenly open.

And people were going there. Not huge crowds. Just a constant trickle. Moms with kids. Old couples. Teenagers from South Broward. Guys still in work uniforms. Everybody walking with ice cream cones in hand. At first I thought maybe it was some viral marketing thing. A TikTok place. You know how South Florida gets with weird dessert spots. Then the ads started.

I started seeing them everywhere. Bus benches on Hollywood Boulevard. Flyers stapled to poles near Young Circle. Ads playing on the little TVs above gas station pumps. Even those cheap folded coupon mailers people throw away immediately.

Same pastel colors. Same smiling cartoon ice cream man with red cheeks and huge teeth.

“YOU DESERVE A TREAT.”

Then I saw the commercial. I was half asleep on my couch watching TV at like 10:00 PM when it came on. It looked old. Not retro on purpose. Actually old. Like something filmed on tape in the 80s.

A man in a white uniform stood behind the counter smiling directly into the camera. He was wearing an old-timey ice scream man uniform, with the bow tie and hat, he's eyes were wide and had this shit eating grim. Kids sat around him eating ice cream sundaes while this weird little jingle played.

“Bad day? Bad thoughts? You deserve a treat! Come on down to Jack's ice cream Parlor, There's a flavor for everyone!"

I remember laughing because it was so bizarre. His voice sounded low and raspy but smooth, Like everything he was saying was in a single breath,

Then the guy in the commercial looked directly at the camera and said:

“From butterscotch to bubble gum, sourballs and cherry blasters" Then it starts zooming in on the ice cream man, everything cuts out around him. It's just focused on him, the kids can no longer be heard, the music stops playing and the background behind the ice cream man starts flashing from pale blue, pink and yellow. "Fast as fast can be, lickety split." The ice cream man says as he looks directly into the camera, holding up an ice cream cone in one hand And smiling the biggest smile I have ever seen And then The commercial ended there. No address. No phone number.

Just: JACK’S ICE CREAM, YOU DESERVE A TREAT. then That same week. the truck started showing up. Every hour. Not exaggerating. Every single hour. I live in a neighborhood near Taft Street where you mostly hear barking dogs, loud mufflers, and people yelling at each other through apartment walls. Suddenly every hour you’d hear this soft little ice cream song drifting down the street. cheerful. Slow. Almost sad. I’d look out my window and see this white truck crawling down the road. Kids would run outside for it. Adults too sometimes. That was weird. Grown adults standing barefoot in driveways waiting for ice cream like hypnotized children. And every single time, the driver was the same guy from the commercial. Tall. Thin. White uniform. Huge smile.

One afternoon I finally went down. I don’t even know why. Curiosity I guess. Or maybe the smell. Vanilla. The richest vanilla smell you can imagine. Sweet enough to almost make your teeth ache. The truck stopped under the streetlight outside my building. Music still playing softly. The man leaned out the window and smiled at me like he already knew me. “Rough day?” he asked.

And yeah. It had been. Work sucked. Rent was going up. My ex had posted pictures with some new guy. My upstairs neighbors had spent three hours screaming at each other. Just normal a normal day in my life honestly. I laughed a little and said, “Yeah.”

He nodded like a doctor hearing symptoms. “The world can be ugly,” he said. “You deserve a treat.”

Then he handed me a cone.

Vanilla. Perfect swirl.

No melting despite the heat.

I asked how much and he said:

“Kindness pays for kindness.”

Corny as hell.

But I took it.

And honestly?

Best ice cream I’ve ever had in my life.

No contest.

It tasted cold without being freezing. Sweet without being sugary. Every bite tasted like some perfect childhood memory you can almost remember but not fully.

For a second I felt…happy.

Not excited. Not hyper.

Just genuinely okay.

Like every awful thing in my life had gone quiet for one minute.

The driver smiled wider. he said softly. “Now you see it.”

That sentence bothered me immediately.

I asked him what he meant but he just tipped his hat and drove off.

That’s when things changed. Not dramatically at first. Just little things. The next morning I went to Publix on Sheridan and saw a mother yank her kid so hard by the arm the little girl almost fell over.

A guy in line laughed. Later I saw a dead iguana baking on the sidewalk with ants crawling through its eye socket while people stepped around it without looking down. At work I noticed how everyone talked about each other. Not normal gossip. Genuine hatred. Smiling to someone’s face then tearing them apart two seconds later. I started noticing homeless people more too. Not in a noble “opened my eyes” kind of way. I mean really noticing them. The infections. The smell. The way people flinch away from them like diseased animals. Then it got worse. Everywhere I looked people were cruel. A teenager filming an old man who fell outside Walmart instead of helping him. A couple screaming at each other in a parking lot while their kid cried in the back seat. A woman hitting her dog outside my apartment complex. It was like somebody peeled a layer off the world and showed me what was underneath. Nobody is kind unless they get something from it.

Nobody means what they say. Everybody hurts each other constantly. But one thing Still remained the same, that damned ice cream truck kept coming by. That damn song every hour. Closer every day. Neighbors staring. Coworkers repeating the phrase from the commercial without realizing it. “You deserve a treat.” I started seeing Happy Jack’s wrappers in storm drains. Melted cones left on benches. Pink napkins blowing across parking lots.

Like the city was filling up with it.

Last week I finally went to the actual parlor.

I drove there during my break.

The place looked normal enough from outside. Families eating at tables. Music playing. Neon lights glowing in the windows. But when I walked in, I saw there was nobody inside. It was quiet. Not immediately. Before I stepped through the door I heard heard the small hum of a freezer and the lights overhead. But once I walked in, it all stopped. Behind the counter was the ice cream man.

Same white uniform. Same shit eating grin.

He looked genuinely happy to see me.

“welcome!, What can I get ya?” he said.

I asked him what was happening to me.

And I’ll never forget his answer.

He leaned over the counter and said:

“Nothing is happening to you. This is how it’s always been.”

Then he gestured to a window of the people outside eating ice cream. The families. The children. The couples smiling when ice cream dripping down their hands. “Most people need help ignoring it,” he said. “That’s what ice cream is for.”

I asked him what the ice cream actually was.

And his smile twitched for the first time.

Not bigger.

Tired.

Like I’d asked a stupid question. Then somebody outside started crying. Not normal crying. Deep. Animal sobbing.

I looked through the window and saw a little boy sitting alone at a table with a melted sundae in front of him. Tears pouring down his face silently. Nobody else reacted. Everyone just kept minding their own business. The boy looked at me and mouthed. “Please.” I ran. I genuinely ran out of there like a lunatic. I could hear the ice cream man laughing behind me while the bell over the door jingled. I haven’t gone back. But the truck still come every hour. And now when I hear the music outside my apartment, I notice something new every time. Couples who hate each other. Parents who regret their kids. Friends waiting for weakness so they can tear each other apart.

People filming accidents instead of helping.

People pretending to care.

People pretending to love.

Everybody smiling because pretending is easier. Last night I looked out my window and the truck was outside. There were about twelve people standing around it in pajamas and slippers waiting quietly in the dark. The driver handed out ice cream to everyone, all the while that music was still playing. eventually everyone got an ice cream cone and left but the truck was still there outside of my apartment. As I looked through the window I swear he was looking Directly at me. Still smiling That smile, on the side of the truck I can read the painted letters "there's a flavor for everyone's misery!" "You deserve a treat!" "Fast as fast can be!" And even from four floors up, I could read his lips perfectly.

“lickety split."

The Antarctic morning was a masterpiece of silence and silver. The sun hung low and pale, turning the towering icebergs into jagged diamonds that sparkled and reflected as they drifted across a sea of liquid obsidian. It was a place where time itself felt irrelevant, a pristine wilderness that had remained unchanged, a testament to the raw, terrifying power of the natural world for millennia. The sea and ice whispered tales of ancient mysteries few were fortunate enough to see firsthand.

“God, this place is such a dump” Julian muttered, leaning against the freezing railing of the Explorer and flicking a piece of lint off his five-hundred-dollar parka.

To him, the “majestic silence and expansive sky” everyone couldn’t stop gushing about was just one giant lack of Wi-Fi, a dead zone in the worst sense of the word. And the “Once-in-a-lifetime” view was nothing more than a background for a selfie he couldn’t even upload. He snorted. And what the fuck is the point of that? No likes, no comments. No interaction with those thousands of followers I’ve grown that treat me like a God, all because I pose with shit they’ll never be able to afford.

He glanced back at the heated observation lounge, spotting Chloe through the glass; the girl was clearly looking for him, her face full of that pathetic, doe-eyed devotion he’d cultivated and built up the last few nights. He looked away before she could turn and catch his eye. He was done with her. She was a “Drake Passage” girl-a fun way to kill time and squeeze a little pleasure out of the misery his parents had forced upon him, in the name of “Broadening his horizons”-and now that they were at the main event, he needed a bigger prize than a mildly good looking chick with nice tits. He didn’t want to be just another tourist in a bright red jacket; he wanted to be the one who took what he wanted from this frozen shithole and left his mark before anyone else could.

He wanted to be one of the last on Earth who could say they were truly the first to do something. Say it, and not be full of shit.

Behind him came the sound of the lounge door’s latch unlocking, followed a moment later by the chattering of many people’s voices as it swung open. Knowing he would draw the ire of his mother if he let on how he truly felt, he painted a pleased, interested expression on his face before turning around.

“Alright folks, if I can have everyone gather around the port railing, please,” the expedition leader’s voice crackled through the deck’s speakers, competing slightly with a repeating hum and low, teeth chattering vibration Julian had both heard and felt ever since they’d arrived. He was dressed in a red parka, pointing a gloved hand towards the towering walls of rock and ice encircling the vessel like Indians straight out of a western.

“Welcome this morning to Hidden Bay. If you look directly behind us, to the north, you’ll see the two massive, snow-capped granite spires of Cape Renard. They act as the western gatekeeper to this entire area. To our east is Aguda Point. This bay is incredibly unique in that it’s only about three miles deep, and less than a mile wide.”

The crowd oohed and ahhed as they looked around. Camera shutters clicked rapidly, and Julian saw his parents among them, smiling to themselves. He resisted the extreme urge to roll his eyes at the scene and looked around. As his eyes wandered, they drifted across and found Chloe, who pushed her blonde hair behind one ear and gave him a small smile. Immediately he changed direction to look out over the railing again, pretending to be interested in the scenery. God, please don’t come over here.

An older man near the railing turned, lowering his massive camera lens. “Is that why it’s so dead calm in here? It feels more like a lake than something connected to the ocean.”

“Exactly,” the guide nodded, smiling. “We are completely tucked into the western coast of the Graham Land mainland. The sheer walls of the glaciers around us block the fierce winds. But more importantly, look just past the mouth of the bay to the southwest. Out there, beyond our view lies the Grandidier Channel.”

He gestured toward the open horizon where the calm bay water met the darker, vast ocean.

“The Grandidier is a massive, deep-water highway. It plunges down hundreds of meters into a glacial trough, channeling raw oceanic currents straight up from the south. The Lemaire Channel-which we’ll navigate later-cuts right off from it. Hidden Bay sits right at the intersection of these two giants. Because the Grandidier pushes nutrient-rich, deep waters right to our doorstep here, it brings an incredible amount of marine life up from the abyss.”

He paused, letting the tourists take a few photos of a massive, glowing blue iceberg drifting near the shoreline. As he did, Julian felt more than heard his parents sidle up beside him.

“That’s some view, isn’t it Jules?” his father asked, reaching over and gently tousling the teenager’s hair. In response, Julian ducked out of his reach.

“Dad, how many times do I have to tell you I hate that stupid nickname?” he asked, his voice rising slightly in pitch. “It was fine when I was six, but I’m almost eighteen now. I’m not a damn kid anymore.” His father gave a good natured chuckle and instead patted him on the shoulder. However, he saw his mother give him a disapproving stare as a few of the others turned, hearing the swear. Julian let out a small snort showing exactly how much he cared, but held his tongue. A little kid, one that he had come to think of as one half of the brat club with his brother spoke up.

“What sort of animals come up with the water, sir?” The guide smiled warmly at him.

“An excellent question, young man. The deep canyon water is actually why we have so much activity today. The water brings plankton and krill up from the depths, which in turn draws many species of fish like Icefish and Antarctic Silverfish. It’s a massive wildlife corridor out there. We often get Humpback Whales spyhopping in the channel, as well as frequent sightings of Orcas and even the occasional Blue Whale passing through. And, of course, we sometimes see sperm whales passing through the channel as they navigate the deep, open ocean waters for squid. As for here in the bay itself, the fish that chase the plankton draw many species of penguins, like Adelie, Chinstrap and Gentoo. Which, in turn, draws some of the larger predators, like Leopard Seals.”

The crowd smiled and clapped like trained seals again. The boy’s mother leaned down and kissed him, smiling at his question.

It was enough to make Julian want to vomit. I’m in a fucking Hallmark movie here. I want to do something! I want something exciting to do!

The thought suddenly brought forth something the guide had discussed the night before, before everyone went to bed. An activity that was scheduled. Swinging his head towards the stern of the ship, he grinned as he saw the row of colorful kayaks lined up on the lower marina platform alongside the Zodiac. Yes! Deciding he’d had enough of hearing something he could have listened to on the National Geographic channel at home on his father’s home cinema, and not caring if his mother got pissy at him for interrupting, he raised his hand and spoke up.

“Hey, when are we going kayaking?”

The guide, who’d been in the middle of starting to speak again, looked up and focused his eyes on him.

“Ah, Julian, right?” The man offered a practiced, accommodating smile, though his eyes shifted briefly to his parents. “I completely understand the eagerness. The Bay and Lemaire area is world-renowned for its sea kayaking. However, as I was just about to explain to the group, our spotters have noted an unusually high level of Leopard Seal activity near the ice floes this morning. Because they appear to be in a highly aggressive hunting mode, the expedition leader has officially canceled all kayaking for the day. I’m sorry, but for the safety of the group, we are keeping everyone on the main vessel for the moment.” He smiled. “But don’t worry, once we get the green light from the spotters, we’ll be launching the Zodiac boats for a safe, guided cruise around the Cape. It’s an incredible view, I promise!”

For a moment, the Antarctic chill that had endlessly attempted to seep through his coat felt as though it had found a way in. He shivered, though not from the elements. Canceled. The one damn thing so far around this godforsaken frozen rock that wouldn’t have involved sitting around with senior citizens, and it was gone. Julian felt a hot spike of rage flash straight through to his chest, and impulsively burst out.

“Are you fucking kidding me?!”

The harsh curse cut through the crisp air like a gunshot. The crowd of tourists froze, the smiles instantly vanishing from their faces as they whirled around to look at him. The woman with the children ducked and immediately put hands over her nearest child’s ears, motioning for her husband to do the same with the other. Chloe was staring at him with a mixture of shock and impressed awe. There was silence for a second.

“Julian!” his mother hissed sharply, her face draining of color as she reached out to grab his elbow. “Language!”

He tore his arm from her grip, taking a step forward, towards the guide. “No, Mom, I’m sick of this. This is an absolute joke and a half. Look at the water, it’s a goddamn mirror! We’re paying a fortune for this trip, and you’re letting a couple of overgrown seals and a David Attenborough knock off Dad would have fired at his company for telling him no cancel the only part of this so-called vacation so far that isn’t completely boring!”

“Julian, shut your damn mouth right now! You’re embarrassing us!” his father hissed, stepping in between his son and the rest of the open-mouthed passengers, his face twisted into a mask of the sort of fury that would only fit the CEO of a Fortune 500 company. “We are not paying for this trip-your mother and I are. And we raised you to be far better than this,” he gestured to everyone. “Apologize to the guide, to everyone immediately!”

But Julian didn’t listen. He sneered at his father.

“Screw you, Dad, and screw this boat,” he growled, backing away towards the other side of the deck.

“Julian, please listen,” the guide chimed in over the PA system, trying desperately to de-escalate the situation. “Like I said, as soon as the spotters have cleared the area as safe enough, we’ll be launching the Zodiacs for those who want the tour. It’s still going to be an incredible experience.”

Julian snorted disdainfully.

“Yeah, enjoy your ‘safe’ little cruise, then, sheep,” he spat, shoving his gloved hands into his pockets. He spun on his heel and strode away, his head stuck high in the air as he walked out of sight around the Observation Lounge. For a moment, there was another stretch of silence. Julian’s mother, face beet red from her son’s tantrum, began to follow after him, but was stopped as his father put a hand on her shoulder.

“Let him go, Maria. Let him blow off some steam. We’ll handle him later tonight.” He turned back towards the guide.

“My apologies for that, sir. Please, continue. In fact, could you tell us how we’re able to stay in place, despite not being anchored?”

The murmurs began to die down as the guide cleared his throat, regaining his composure. “Of course, sir. It’s quite alright. The Explorer is equipped with a system called Dynamic Positioning. The ship’s computers continuously fires bow and stern thrusters, as well as the vessel’s 360-degree rotating propellers to keep us in place. It’s the vibration you all may have felt every few minutes through the hull.” He perked up slightly. “And a fun fact for those of you who may not know. It actually creates a recurring, low-frequency grinding and hissing noise underwater that travels for miles!”

He turned and began to lead the way towards the bow.

“And now that we can return to our tour-”

Julian leaned against the starboard railing, breathing heavily. Anger still coursed through his system, and he gripped the railing so tightly that, if he didn’t have gloves on, he was sure would see the knuckles of his hands turning white. The indignation of being chastised to by his parents was almost more than he could stand. He hocked a loogie over the side into the still water. I can’t believe how spineless they both are, he thought bitterly. Dad would literally have fired that guy for telling him no in a board room, and Mom would have smiled and told him he did the right thing. But now? Here in this crap hole? They act like peasants. Like the groveling poors we pay to avoid living near. He let out a deep breath and turned, leaning his back against the railing. As he did, his gaze drifted towards the kayaks. The sight of them brought the disappointment back with a vengeance, and he looked away. Then he looked back at them again. His breathing slowed, and he felt his rage begin to be replaced with a sense of calm as something began to turn inside his head.

“Julian?”

He started at the soft call, snapping out of his thoughts and turning to find Chloe had detached herself from the others, standing a few feet away. Oh, great. Fucking brilliant. He let out a sigh.

“What?”

She hesitated for a second, then stepped forward, reaching out and putting a hand on his shoulder.

“You’re right,” she said, shaking her head and snorting as she shot a look back where the group had to have gone. “It’s complete bullshit that we were told we were gonna go kayaking today, and they canceled just because of some oversized Harbor Seals are a bit rowdy,” she shook her head again, smiling warmly at him. “I’m sorry it ruined what you wanted to do.”

Julian let out an exasperated laugh at the fact the girl had immediately pivoted to his defense, as if he needed someone to come to it. Just another sheep like the damn rest. And bothering me when I’m thinking.

“Fuck off, Chloe,” he muttered coldly, pulling out of her grasp and turning away as he again eyed the kayaks.

Chloe took a step back, for a moment a hurt look flashing across her face. Then her features darkened, and she stuck out her lower lip in a pout.

“Fine. I was going to ask if I could make you feel better tonight after everyone went to sleep, but if you feel that way,” she turned and began to walk away.

The insinuation slammed into Julian like a truck, the memory of his nightly conquests cutting through the anger and thoughts racing through his mind. You know what? Maybe I’m not done with her. Maybe she is good for me for another few nights. He turned, plastering an apologetic look on his face.

“Hey, wait,” he called, raising a hand dramatically. He saw her stop and turn back to look at him. He allowed a regretful tone to enter his voice. “Look, I’m sorry, alright? I’m an asshole. Just. Having the first really cool thing that had been scheduled get fucked over really did a number on me.”

For a moment, she remained still. Then, just as he predicted, she bought it. The cool expression left her face, replaced by the doe-eyed smile as she crossed back to him. She leaned forward and pecked a kiss on his cheek.

“It’s fine,” she cooed in his ear, pulling back. “Just, don’t get angry at me for something that’s not my fault, okay?”

He nodded, faking a smile, but needing her to buzz off; He only had a little time to put the plan he’d just thought of into action.

“Deal. Just, do me a favor and give me a little time to cool off, okay? That way I won’t take it out on you.”

Internally, he held his breath. Part of him was afraid she’d insist on staying with him, which would derail his plan completely. But to his relief, she nodded, smiling warmly at him, turning and walking away. He noticed with an amused snort that she walked away with a pronounced wiggle to her hips, clearly trying to tease him. Well, looks like I’ve got something to look forward to tonight.

After she was out of sight, he shook his head to clear his mind. He needed to focus if he was gonna pull off the scheme he’d cemented in his mind. He looked back to make sure nobody else was looking. Then he began to, quickly and quietly, make his way towards the stern of the ship and the platform. He smirked to himself.

Fuck all of them. I’m gonna be the first to do something.

 

As the tour group listened to the guide, Julian’s parents stood near the back, quietly arguing with each other.

“It’s your fault, Jonathan,” Maria whispered sharply, “You always give him a break when he doesn’t deserve one, and use that ridiculous ‘boys will be boys’ comment to excuse his behavior. And now look where it’s gotten us.”

Jonathan sighed, not wanting to start another fight in front of the group; one embarrassment for the day was more than enough.

“You’re right, darling,” he said softly. “You’re absolutely right. I do go too easy on him. Which I will be making up for tonight before we go to bed. But, for the moment, let’s at least try and enjoy the tour. Today is our anniversary, after all.”

He saw Maria hesitate; he knew she wanted to keep at him, knowing full well he didn’t really intend to do anything to their son besides a stern lecture. But she nodded, placing a hand on his chest.

“Alright,” she said, smiling gently at him. Satisfied he’d averted his wife’s fury, he turned his attention back to the guide as he continued speaking. Everyone had returned their rapt attention on the beautiful landscape around them. Camera shutters clicked away again, and the children laughing joyfully as their parents picked them up to see over the railing. They didn’t even cast a glance towards the stern of the ship.

Where a lone figure paddled quickly away, towards the Lemaire Channel.

 

Julian drove his paddle into the water, his arms already beginning to burn as he pushed the bright red kayak as fast as his muscles would allow. He kept his head low, constantly throwing glances over his shoulder. The ship was shrinking in size behind him, the tourists all grouped at the bow railing. Nobody was sparing a glance his way. The realization made him chuckle, a smirk spreading across his face as he looked ahead at his destination. His chest heaved with a heavy, toxic adrenaline. Fuck them all. This is my turn. I’m gonna be the first teenager in history to solo kayak the Lemaire Channel. And even if I get caught, they’ll never allow it to happen again. Which means I’ll be the only one to ever do it. The thought made him grin, and he pushed himself harder, the muscles he’d built from being on the rowing team back home helping him round the rocky shadow of Cape Renard and straight towards the northern mouth of the bottleneck.

Beneath his boots, the molded plastic floorboards still vibrated with a faint, teeth-chattering hum that had been coming from the boat. He’d felt it vibrating as he’d slid the kayak into the water, all the way in his bones. As he reached the mouth of the channel, he felt the water change. The surface remained deceptively calm-still the same glassy, obsidian mirror the bay had been-but beneath the façade, he felt a massive, silent current take hold of the hull. It felt as if the seawater had suddenly turned to thick oil; every inch of it resisted the dip and lift of his paddle. Tiny shards of floating brash ice and frozen kelp fronds swept past him in a slow, ghostly rush, riding a deep polar tide that compressed within the channel’s walls ahead. He smiled, misinterpreting the resistance as a challenge he was easily conquering. Even easier than getting Chloe into bed. The dead-calm water allowed his hull to glide in absolute silence, leaving nothing but a long, silver wake tracing a straight line back to the ship.

As he paddled into the bottleneck, the sheer, three-thousand foot walls of ice and granite rose up on either side of him, swallowing the pale morning sun. He stopped for a moment to catch his breath and spared a glance over the side, down into the water.

He stopped. The sight that greeted him rooted him to the spot for a moment.

The green coastal hue of the water that had made up the bay had disappeared. In its place was now an almost ink black void that seemed to stretch into infinity. The sight of the seemingly bottomless trench beneath him caused him to exhale slightly harder than normal, feeling a chill that the cold air had nothing to do with. Then he shook his head roughly.

“Knock it off,” he said harshly, returning to the motion of paddling as he felt himself begin to be swept backwards to the bay. He wasn’t some scared little boy who didn’t know how to swim.

He was Julian fucking Nichols, and he was going to make history.

He resumed paddling, feeling the oily friction beneath the surface increasing in its resistance. The further he got into the channel, the heavier the current seemed to become. Still, he ignored the slight ache in his arms, gritting his teeth and digging into the water as if his paddle was a shovel. He let out a low chuckle.

“Think you’re gonna beat me, God?” he arrogantly said into the cold sky, his breath visible in front of him. “Think again.”

The minutes dragged on as he slowly made progress, using the shoreline as waypoints to mark how much he’d moved forward. When he felt his arms begin to burn, he allowed himself to rest for a few moments, setting the paddle sideways across the front of the kayak. He took several deep breaths, letting the cold air invigorating him for his next push, and in his head, could almost hear the impressed tone of his rowing instructor complimenting him when he got home and told him what he’d done.

The sound that came from over his left shoulder shooed away the phantom voice.

Pfff-huffff.

It was a ragged, heavy exhalation, carrying the pungent smell of digested fish and cold brine. Julian’s confidence dwindled as he went rigid in the kayak, slowly turning to look. The sight that greeted him made his heart almost leap into his throat.

Just five feet away, a massive, almost reptilian head was hovering silently in the water, staring directly at him. Up close, away from the safety of the ship’s railing, it was horrifyingly huge. Its skull was long and heavy looking, shaped like a prehistoric predator’s, wrapped in scarred, spotted gray skin that glistened like wet steel. It’s black, unblinking eyes fixed onto Julian with a cold, soulless intensity, its mouth parting just enough to reveal a jaw filled with interlocking teeth. Its nostrils twitched as it exhaled another plume of freezing mist into his face.

A cold sweat broke out beneath his layers as a half-remembered trivia fact from the guide’s previous lectures clawed its way forward into his mind: a story about a marine biologist who, while snorkeling in these waters, had been seized by the leg by the monster staring at him, dragged three hundred feet down into the abyss, and drowned. Suddenly, any arrogance Julian had felt fled him.

And then he felt the first tendrils of true terror as two more dark fractures broke the still water behind the first. The sound came from his right, and he slowly turned, fighting the urge to scream as he saw two more. They didn’t move, didn’t charge him. They just hovered, a quintet of ten-foot, three-hundred pound apex killers anchoring him in place in the most agonizing staring contest he could imagine.

But just as his chest tightened, and he prepared to open his mouth and scream, the Leopard Seal closest to him’s eyes widened. It’s pupils dialated with a sudden, frantic alarm. With an explosive, almost synchronized thrash of their powerful flippers, all five seals contorted and leapt forward. But not towards him. They rocketed past his red hull, fleeing towards the now distant bay so fast their massive wake violently rocked his kayak, splashing freezing water on him that took his breath away.

Julian gripped the sides of the cockpit, his breath coming in ragged gaps as the silver ripples slowly faded back into a mirror. Silence reclaimed the canyon. For a few moments, he didn’t move. Then, slowly, a smirk crept back onto is face as the terror he’d felt melted into a sheer, intoxicating burst of adrenaline.

They had run. The apex predators of the peninsula had looked him in the eye, five of them. And they had fled.

A sharp, cocky laugh bubbled up from his chest, bouncing off the granite cliffs. It rose in intensity into a high pitched shriek of victory as he turned to flip the bird behind him.

“Yeah, that’s right, bitches, you better run!” he shouted into the empty canyon, his ego swelling to a dangerous, invincible high. Wanting to cement his absolute dominance over nature, Julian raised his paddle high above his head and slammed the blade down against the water. Thwack! The concussive crack echoed like a rifle shot down the canyon walls. He lifted it and slammed it down again. Thwack! He laughed, reveling in the sound of his own manufactured authority. This must be what Dad feels like to fire someone.

Laughing, he began to paddle forward again, determined more than ever to reach the end of the channel. He spared another look behind him. And noticed the sudden shift on the distant vessel. Looking back over his shoulder towards Hidden Bay, the quiet, uniform lines of the tourists had fractured into a chaotic swarm. The sharp crack of his paddle had acted like a gunshot in the silent polar amphitheater, pulling every long range lens and pair of binoculars straight towards the channel. Even from this distance, he could see tiny figures breaking away from the main throng, sprinting down the external staircases towards the stern platform. They were heading for the Zodiacs. They had seen him.

“Shit!”

A cold, heavy knot dropped into Julian’s stomach, quickly replaced by a surge of desperate, stubborn adrenaline. If they caught him now, he would be dragged back to the ship in front of everyone, Chloe included-he’d be humiliated, grounded and forced to face his mother’s fury for the rest of the voyage. And on top of that, he’d only be known as the kid who tried to solo kayak the channel, not made it.

The thought was too much. He wouldn’t give them the satisfaction. The exit of the channel seemed an impossibly long way off, but still he dug the paddle into the water with a new found ferocity. His chest began to burn as he deeply inhaled the freezing air, his arms on fire as he refused to slow, determined to conquer the passage before the roar of the outboard motor could catch up to him.

The distant, high pitched whine of the motor finally cut through the air behind him, echoing off the cliffs as the first Zodiac roared out of the bay towards the mouth of the channel. Julian gritted his teeth, his shoulders burning as he forced the paddle through the water, desperate to put as much distance as he could between himself and his “rescuers”. He was dimly aware that around him, the channel had narrowed to its thinnest section. But his attention was ripped away as he began to notice something.

The kayak was becoming sluggishly slow. And it wasn’t the tide, either. He cast a glance around, making sure he wasn’t hitting any ice just below the surface. He saw nothing. He fought for breath. Am I getting that tired?

Then, it stopped.

No matter how much he dug the paddle into the water, the small boat refused to move forward or slide back. It was as if he’d found the only underwater rock in the channel and ran aground on it. Confusion swept over him as he fought to free himself from whatever he’d come into, be it an eddy or a rip current.

That’s when the vibration began.

Beneath the soles of his boots, a new, deeply unsettling sensation vibrated through the the red plastic. It wasn’t the chattering hum of the ship’s engines. It was a heavy, organic friction-the sound of something heavy and rubbery sliding slowly against the underside of his hull, dragging along the keel with a sickening, wet resistance. It was accompanied by a sound as well. One that Julian felt in the back of his teeth. A sound that was almost like long fingernails being sickeningly dragged along plastic.

He froze, his paddle hovering inches above the glassy surface. Something deep and primal in himself was uncoiling like a snake, and the unnamed sensation caused the wisps of terror he’d felt facing the seals to return. He began trying to drive the paddle through the water with increasing ferocity, his breaths beginning to come fast and shallow. He dared not look into the water, only focusing ahead. But it was useless; for all his effort, he barely moved five feet forwards. He paused. The silence returned, this time heavy and suffocating aside from the growing sound of the Zodiac behind him.

Then, the kayak lurched. A thick, muscular mass of pinkish-maroon flesh, lined with cat-like, swiveling chitinous hooks, slowly curved over the left rim of the cockpit. Julian’s breath froze in his throat as he stared at it. What…the fuck… Then the sheer weight of the appendage tilted the kayak violently to one side as it flexed. Before Julian could ever draw in a breath to scream, a wave of freezing, twenty-eight degree seawater poured over the rim, instantly flooding the open cockpit and pooling around his waist. The shock was catastrophic; it hit his nerves like liquid fire, instantly paralyzing his legs and locking his muscles in useless spasms. He was trapped in a sinking, plastic bucket as….something pulled it downwards.

The kayak lurched again, and Julian had to reach out to grab the lip of the cockpit to keep from tumbling out into the water. His face was forced to look down over the edge of the hull.

What he saw froze him more than the freezing water ever could.

Just five feet below the obsidian surface, the darkness had coalesced into a shape. A massive, round shape. Julian felt his heart stop as his mind realized what he was looking at.

An eye. A single, unblinking eye the size of a soccer ball, with a massive, dark horizontal pupil that reflected in the pale sunlight. It wasn’t a soulless fish eye. It was intelligent, hyper-focused and locked onto him with a cold, predatory curiosity.

Panic and terror, hot and sharp finally broke through whatever was left of his façade. Acting entirely on the survival instincts of a spoiled kid used to hitting his problems until they went away, Julian raised the heavy paddle he’d almost forgotten he’d held onto with a death grip. With a guttural scream, he brought the blade down with everything he had left in him, smashing it directly onto the maroon flesh still draped over the cockpit.

The blade connected hard. To his absolute shock, the massive tentacle contracted and recoiled, its hooks giving a sickening screech against the plastic as it withdrew back into the depths. Below the surface, the massive eye quickly vanished. Julian had a sense of a massive shape moving quickly away from him as whatever it had been retreated back into the dark void of the trench. The kayak rocked violently, stabilizing as the dead weight was removed. Julian sat panting, his breath exploding from him in thick, white plumes, his legs completely numb from the freezing water sloshing about his legs. He looked down.

The water was empty again.

He let out a ragged, hysterical laugh. He had done it. He had beaten the seals, and he had beaten whatever the hell that thing had been.

But as he looked ahead at the long, empty corridor of the channel ahead of him, looking for all the world to him now like it was a million miles away, any intoxicating thoughts of being the first to traverse what felt less like a waterway and more like a massive, open grave faded away. His entire body was shaking with a mixture of shock, onset of hypothermia and fear. Behind him, he heard the loud sound of the Zodiac nearing him; turning, he could see the apoplectic faces of his parents along with one of the guides as the moved towards him. His pride finally broke.

Screw the solo record, man, he thought. I’m done. He began to awkwardly move the paddle in his frozen hands, desperate to turn the half sunken boat around and allow the approaching tender to save him.

He never got the chance to turn.

The obsidian glass beneath him didn’t just break-it obliterated. The Colossal Squid didn’t strike from the side; it flew up from the abyss below with all the force of a freight train and the rage of a wounded bull. The impact was what Julian thought being hit by a truck must feel like. A wall of freezing foam erupted into the air as he felt the impact slam directly into the keel beneath him. There was a horrific, screaming tear of plastic being shredded by a thousand hooks. Julian didn’t just capsize; he was launched into the air as if he’d been a cartoon character in a catapult. As if in slow motion, he watched the world whirl around, heard the sound of his parents screaming as the black water flew up to meet him.

The instant his face hit the water, the cold struck him like a fist in the face. The shock of the freezing water made him let out an involuntary gasp, choking as he drew in a burning lungful of water. His vision blurred as thousands of angry bubbles protested his entrance into their domain. He tried to swim, thrashing his arms as his useless, frozen legs hung limply. The five-hundred-dollar parka he’d boasted about now felt as if it were a lead weight. His head broke the surface, and for a moment he heard his parent’s frantic voices as they shouted for him to swim to them.

Then he was pulled beneath the surface as a feeding tentacle-a maroon arrow as thick around as a tree trunk-coiled around his waist. The hooks shredded effortlessly through the layers of his clothing and bit into his flesh with an agonizing pain that not even the numbness could hold back. Feebly, as he felt the tentacle pull him away from the surface, he fought to push it away with his hands. But it was no use. Somewhere above him, he heard the muffled screams of his parents.

For a second, he caught a glimpse of the giant eye, no longer staring curiously at him, but with a mixture of hatred and hunger. Then, as he saw the giant, gnashing beak appear, snapping open and shut in anticipation of its next meal, a thought occurred to him. The last thought he ever had. He was going to be the first in the history books after all.

He was about to be the first recorded case of a human being eaten alive by a Colossal Squid.

After having been single for the first three years of college, I wanted to dip my toes in the dating scene. I installed Tinder and swiped right until my thumb turned purple.

Excitedly, I got a match fairly quickly. Her name was Bella. She was a petite, 21 year old woman with sandy blonde hair and dimples that made me melt on the spot. According to her profile, she went to the same university as me and she was a junior in college.

After some back and forth between the two of us, she surprisingly invited me to a party in the wealthier part of town. She said she knew some friends who were going to be throwing an absolute thrasher and wanted to bring a date.

I agreed immediately.

We chatted some more and I agreed to pick her up at 10pm. The plans were set. Beaming, I threw my phone on my bed and fist pumped the air.

That was far easier than I could have imagined.

Later that night, I picked her up. I fully expected her to be a catfish but lo and behold, as I approached her address, she was already standing on the curb, smiling and waving excitedly. She was wearing a beautiful sweater and stylish pants that fit her curves well. 

If I’m honest, the outfit she wore kind of made her look older than I initially pictured, almost like a soccer mom, but that’s neither here nor there. She got in my car and we headed toward the party.

As my car rolled up to the address of the party, my jaw dropped in awe. The house was massive and had the appearance of a souped-up grandiose mansion. I asked Bella if this was actually the house and she nodded emphatically. 

On the way to the door, I was in shock at how fancy the yard and exterior was. It truly looked like an establishment owned by a multimillionaire. Strangely, though, there were only a handful of other cars parked in front of the house, despite the loud volume indicating there were far more people inside.

As we got closer to the house, my estimates were right. In the windows, I could see probably over a hundred people dancing and partying inside, while music emanated from the interior. 

As soon as Bella and I came in through the door, however, it felt like everyone in the house froze for a brief second. I’m not exaggerating when I say it looked like every single pair of eyes in that house were on Bella and I just for a moment. Then, as if I had imagined it all, the party resumed and everyone continued dancing as if nothing had happened at all.

I noticed immediately that something wasn’t right, however. These people, who I assumed to be college students, all looked to be in their late 30’s to 40’s. I couldn’t tell if there was a single college student in sight. Much like Bella, they were all dressed as if they were all attending a book club instead of a late-night weekend thrasher.

When I whispered my observation to Bella, she just brushed it off immediately, saying they were probably just all upperclassmen. I suppose she had a point and we made our way to the drinks to loosen up.

As I approached the drinking station, I turned around and realized Bella was nowhere in sight. I texted her asking where she was while I took my first sip of spiked fruit punch. 

While I was standing there, I could have sworn I kept catching people staring in my direction in my periphery, but they shifted their eyes as soon as I turned my head.

I was starting to get seriously disturbed and a knot formed in my stomach as I waded through the crowd trying to look for Bella. 

Eventually, I made my way near the back of the house and found a hallway that wasn’t occupied with clumps of people.

Walking down the hall, I read BATHROOM on a sign and followed it. “Great, just the breath of air I need,” I muttered to myself.

I sat on the sink replaying the oddities of the party in my head when I heard a knock at the door. I yelled “Occupied,” but the guy on the other side of the door insisted he had to use the bathroom. I reluctantly opened the door and to my surprise, the guy was the first person who actually looked like a college student. 

He was young, tall, and was actually dressed like the people I’d been accustomed to seeing across campus during my time at college.

Before he could close the door to the bathroom, I stopped him and asked if he picked up on the strange vibe at the party as well. 

He smirked for a second before leaning in and dropping his voice to an almost imperceptible whisper:

“Take a look around. Do these people really look like college students to you?”

I let out a sigh of relief, as if my concerns had finally been recognized by another person. Before I could say anything, he kept whispering:

“You came here with a girl, right? How old did she say she was?”

Confused as to how he knew I had a date, I said “I met this girl off of Tinder earlier today, she said she was 21.”

The guy laughed under his breath. “Typical. Well, if it isn’t obvious already, she isn’t who she says she is.” Then a pause, before he finally whispered once more:

“Hey man, do what you want, but if I were you, I’d say get out of here sooner rather than later.”

And with that, he shut the door before the hallway became dark and silent once again.

I had heard enough. I quickly made my way to the door, feeling everyone’s eyes on me like daggers. Just as I was about to leave, I heard my name being shouted by a person I could only guess to be Bella.

I didn’t stop to see.

I closed the door behind me and jogged back to my car. I peeled out and started driving back home. Something ate at me though.

On my way home, I drove back to the address I picked Bella up at. Curiously, as I pulled up, an older couple had just arrived home and they were walking to their door. I don’t know what possessed me to do this, but I rolled my window down and shouted a question I already knew the answer to:

"Excuse me sir, do you have a daughter named Bella?”

Confused, the older man made his way to my car with his wife, before telling me—to no surprise of my own—that he and his wife had no kids.

I asked them if they had ever seen a woman who matched the description of Bella, describing her appearance and outfit. 

To my surprise, they mentioned seeing a woman who matched that description identically, standing outside of their house waiting for a car almost weekly. They had just assumed she lived around the area and that was her designated meet-up point, given that their house was on a corner. 

After hearing that, I quietly thanked them and drove back home. No radio. Just silent with my own thoughts. 

I can’t help but think I avoided something potentially fatal, and if it weren’t for that young guy outside the bathroom, I’m not sure I’d be typing this story right now.

One thing is for certain: I’m never using Tinder again.

My entire adult life has been dedicated to urban exploration. I find abandoned places, photograph the decay, and document the slow reclamation of man-made structures by the natural world. I usually target old industrial sites, forgotten asylums, and decaying commercial properties. A few weeks ago, I found a deeply buried thread on an obscure mapping forum discussing an undocumented hunting lodge situated in a vast, unnamed stretch of dense wilderness. The coordinates were approximate, derived from a decades-old surveying map that had been scanned and uploaded by an amateur archivist. The extreme isolation of the structure appealed to me.

I packed my heavy canvas rucksack with survival gear, extra water, a high-lumen tactical flashlight, and a secondary backup light. I drove for six hours, leaving the interstate for rural highways, and eventually turning onto a dirt logging road that had not seen vehicle traffic in years. I parked my truck behind a dense thicket of overgrown brush, locked the doors, and began the hike.

The forest was incredibly dense. The tree canopy interlocked completely, blocking out the majority of the afternoon sunlight. I hiked for roughly four hours, navigating entirely by compass and GPS, pushing through heavy undergrowth and crossing shallow, freezing creeks. The silence of the deep woods began to press against my eardrums. There were no birds, no insects buzzing, just the heavy crunch of my own boots hitting the dirt.

I found the lodge just as the sun was beginning to dip below the horizon.

It sat in a small clearing. The structure was a single-story cabin built from thick, dark timber. It was slowly rotting into the earth, the roof sagging heavily under the weight of accumulated moss and dead branches. The windows were boarded up from the inside with thick plywood. There was no visible path leading to the front porch, no fire pit, no signs of recent human habitation. It looked like a forgotten relic of the past century.

I walked up the rotting wooden steps. The wood groaned under my weight. The front door was a heavy slab of solid oak, swollen with decades of moisture, sitting crooked in its frame. I pressed my shoulder against the wood and pushed. The hinges screamed, a sharp, metallic shrieking that echoed violently across the quiet clearing, and the door scraped inward across the floor.

I stepped over the threshold and turned on my heavy flashlight.

The beam cut through the thick darkness of the cabin. The smell hit me immediately. It was a dense, suffocating odor of stale dust, dry rot, and a sharp, synthetic chemical scent that aggressively burned the back of my throat. I swept the bright beam across the walls. The interior was completely stripped of furniture. There were no chairs, no tables, no hunting trophies mounted on the walls.

I lowered the beam to inspect the floor.

My boots were resting on a surface that did not feel like wood. The texture was smooth, slightly yielding, and entirely uniform. I aimed the flashlight directly down at my feet.

The entire floor of the massive main room was covered in a thick, overlapping layer of glossy photographs.

I dropped to one knee to examine the surface closely. The photographs were standard four-by-six prints. They were laid out with an obsessive, terrifying precision, overlapping at the edges by exactly a quarter of an inch, creating a seamless, impenetrable carpet over the original hardwood. A thick, clear layer of adhesive coated the entire mosaic, locking the pictures permanently to the wood and creating that sharp, chemical smell I had noticed upon entry.

I ran the beam of light slowly across the room. There had to be thousands of them. They covered every single square inch of the floor, extending all the way to the baseboards, wrapping around the corners, flowing seamlessly toward a closed door at the back of the cabin.

I looked closely at the picture directly beneath my right boot.

It was a photograph of a young boy, perhaps seven or eight years old. He was standing in what looked like a brightly lit basement.

I looked at the photograph next to it. A young girl, wearing a faded yellow dress, sitting on a concrete floor.

I moved the light, illuminating dozens of pictures in a tight circle around me. Every single photograph featured a different child.

A cold knot formed in my stomach. The subjects varied in age, ranging from toddlers to young teenagers. The backgrounds varied as wellو some were outside in dense foliage, some were inside barren rooms, some were in the back of a cargo van. But there was one terrifying, consistent detail in every single image.

Every child was staring directly into the lens of the camera.

Their expressions were entirely uniform. There was no smiling. There was no crying. They all wore the exact same expression of profound, paralyzing terror. Their eyes were wide, their posture stiff, capturing the absolute climax of human fear frozen in glossy paper.

I stood up slowly, my breathing growing shallow. The sheer scale of the horror beneath my feet was completely overwhelming. I swept the light across the room again, recognizing the sheer volume of human lives cemented to the floorboards.

As the beam caught a cluster of photos near the center of the room, my heart dropped in my foot.

I walked over to the spot, stepping carefully, my boots squeaking slightly against the adhesive coating. I aimed the light at a specific photograph.

It was a boy with distinct, asymmetrical freckles across his nose and a small scar above his left eyebrow. I stared at the face, my mind racing through a massive catalog of true crime reports, missing person databases, and archived news broadcasts I had consumed over the years.

I recognized him. I vividly remembered his face printed in cheap black ink on a missing poster taped to a telephone pole near my childhood home twenty years ago.

I moved the light to the left. A girl with distinctively braided hair. I remembered reading a news article about a local hunter finding her remains discarded near an interstate highway overpass five years ago.

I moved the light again. Another face I recognized from a grainy television broadcast. Another face from a high-profile cold case documentary.

I felt a sudden, overwhelming urge to vomit. I backed away from the center of the room, desperate to escape the thousands of dead eyes staring up at me from the beam of my flashlight.

I moved toward the back of the cabin, my boots finding a heavy wooden door. The photographs flowed perfectly beneath the gap under the door. I grabbed the cold brass handle and turned. It was unlocked.

I pushed the door open. It revealed a small, windowless office space. The photo-carpet continued in here, covering the entire floor. In the center of the room sat a heavy, battered metal desk and a single wooden chair. There was a secondary door on the far wall, secured with a massive, heavy-duty steel padlock. The hinges on the locked door were thick, suggesting a reinforced basement or holding cell beyond the wood.

I approached the metal desk. Resting directly in the center of the rusted surface was a leather-bound notebook.

I set my heavy flashlight down on the desk, aiming the beam toward the ceiling to cast a diffused glow across the small room. I reached out and opened the notebook.

The pages were filled with a frantic, cramped, deeply pressed handwriting. The ink was dark, smudged in places where the author’s hand had sweated against the paper. The entries were not dated by the calendar, but by a running tally of numbers.

I began to read.

The author was the killer. The early entries detailed the mechanics of his hunting. He described his methods with a cold, clinical detachment, detailing the vast geographic distances he covered to avoid establishing a recognizable pattern for law enforcement. He utilized the massive, unmarked forests to dispose of the evidence, burying the remains deep in the earth where the roots and the moisture would destroy the biology.

But the tone of the journal shifted abruptly about halfway through the book. The clinical detachment dissolved into unraveling paranoia.

He stopped writing about the hunting, and started writing about the hands.

They do not stay in the dirt, one entry read, the pen pressing so hard it had nearly torn the paper. I put them six feet deep in the clay. I pack the earth tight. But they push through. The soil does not hold them. The wood does not hold them. They reach up from the ground. Small hands. Grey skin. Cold fingers. They grab at my ankles when I walk through the brush. They reach through the floorboards of the cabin while I sleep.

I turned the page. The handwriting grew larger, more chaotic.

I woke up and they were holding me down. Dozens of small hands reaching straight through the solid oak of the bed frame. They are trying to pull me down into the earth. They want to drag me into the dark with them. I cannot cut them. The knife passes right through the flesh, but their grip is solid iron.

The next few pages detailed a rapid descent into terror. The killer described running from the remote disposal sites, barricading himself in the cabin, only to watch the small, grey hands effortlessly breach the foundation, reaching up through the floor to claw at his legs. He described the agonizing cold of their touch, the relentless, silent pulling.

Then, I found the entry that explained the floor.

They cannot touch the faces. The eyes repel them. I dropped a picture during a breach. The hand touched the glossy paper and burned. It retreated. The paper holds the memory of the fear. The paper holds the absolute authority I had over them in that final moment. I am the apex. The image proves it. The hands cannot breach the evidence of their own submission.

I read the final entry in the book.

I covered the wood. Every inch. The glue seals the barrier. I stand on their faces, and I am safe. Good thing I harvested so many over the years. Thirty years of work, and now they protect me. They pave my sanctuary. I walk on my trophies, and the hands remain trapped in the dirt below the foundation.

I stepped back from the metal desk, the leather notebook slipping from my fingers and slapping shut.

I looked down at the faces staring up at me from the floor of the office.

I needed to leave. I had enough information. I needed to hike back to my truck, drive until I found a cell signal, and bring an army of federal investigators to this cabin.

I turned away from the desk to retrieve my flashlight.

As I pivoted, the heavy tread of my right boot caught the edge of a photograph near the leg of the desk. The adhesive in this specific corner had dried out and failed. The thick, glossy paper snagged in the deep grooves of my sole.

With a loud, ripping sound, a large sheet of four overlapping photographs tore loose from the floorboard.

I stumbled slightly, kicking the loose photos aside. A patch of bare, rotting oak floorboard, roughly a foot wide, was completely exposed to the air.

I regained my balance and looked down at the exposed wood.

The grain of the oak began to ripple.

. The solid structure of the timber simply distorted, the dense wood flowing and separating like a thick liquid.

A hand reached up through the solid floorboard.

It was incredibly small. The skin was a pale, necrotic grey, stretched tight over the thin bones. The fingernails were cracked, packed thick with dark, wet soil. It pushed up through the wood until the wrist was exposed, the fingers grasping blindly at the empty air.

I stood completely frozen, my mind entirely unable to process the impossibility occurring inches from my boots. I thought the killer had a psychotic delusion, but was was perfectly, horrifyingly sane.

The small, grey hand snapped toward my leg.

It moved with a sudden, vicious speed. The cold fingers wrapped tightly around my left ankle.

The sensation was shocking. The skin was freezing cold, burning through the fabric of my hiking pants, radiating an intense, agonizing chill that immediately numbed my lower leg.

The hand pulled downward. The sheer force behind the small fingers was massive. My boot scraped violently across the glossy photos as I was dragged toward the exposed patch of bare wood.

I shouted in panic, throwing my weight backward. I kicked out with my free leg, driving the heel of my right boot directly into the grey wrist.

My boot did not connect with solid bone. It passed completely through the grey flesh, encountering absolutely no resistance, as if I had kicked a column of dense smoke.

Yet, the hand gripping my ankle remained perfectly solid, continuing to pull me toward the floorboards.

I twisted my body violently, throwing myself backward onto the securely glued photographs. The sudden shift in leverage tore my ankle out of the small grip.

The moment my leg crossed the boundary of the photographs, the grey hand stopped. It hovered over the bare patch of wood, its fingers twitching, the knuckles scraping against the air directly above the photos, unable to cross the perimeter. The glossy paper barrier functioned exactly as the notebook described. The intense gaze of the frozen faces repelled the hand.

The hand slowly sank back down into the floorboard. The solid oak rippled briefly, and then the grain smoothed out, leaving the wood entirely undisturbed.

I scrambled backward, pushing myself away from the bare patch, my chest heaving as I gasped for air. I sat on the layer of photographs, staring at the empty wood.

Heavy footsteps thudded loudly against the wooden planks of the front porch.

I snapped my head toward the open doorway of the office.

A large figure stepped through the front entrance of the cabin. The man was tall, broad-shouldered, wearing a heavy, faded canvas hunting jacket and mud-caked boots. His face was deeply weathered, lined with decades of harsh sun and isolation. He possessed a thick, untrimmed grey beard and dark, deeply sunken eyes.

He was holding a hunting rifle.

He stopped just inside the threshold, staring at the open me.

His face contorted into a mask of fury.

"You stepped on them,"

the old man growled.

He racked the bolt of the rifle, sliding a heavy brass cartridge into the chamber with a sharp, metallic clack. He brought the stock of the weapon up to his shoulder, aiming the barrel directly through the doorway toward the office.

I scrambled to my feet. I was trapped in the small, windowless room. The heavy locked door on the back wall offered no escape. The killer was blocking the only exit, standing comfortably in the main room, his boots planted firmly on the overlapping photos.

"You ruined the seal,"

he shouted, stepping slowly toward me, keeping the rifle perfectly leveled at my chest.

"You broke the floor. They are going to get in."

"Wait,"

I yelled, holding my hands up, pressing my back against the locked door.

"I just found this place. I'm leaving. I won't tell anyone."

The old man let out a harsh, barking laugh.

"You are not leaving,"

he said, stepping into the doorway of the office. The barrel of the rifle did not waver. His dark eyes flicked to the notebook sitting on the desk, then down to the small patch of bare wood I had exposed near the chair.

His expression shifted from anger to absolute, paralyzing panic.

"You peeled it,"

he whispered, his voice trembling.

"You exposed the wood."

He looked back at me, his eyes wide with a manic.

"Stand exactly where you are,"

the killer ordered, his finger tightening slightly on the trigger.

"Do not move an inch. I am going to put a round through your heart, and then I am going to use your blood to glue those papers back down before they smell the gap."

I looked at his boots. He was standing completely on the photographs, securely protected by the barrier of staring faces.

I looked down at my own feet. The massive sheet of overlapping photographs I had accidentally kicked loose was resting just inches from my right boot. The adhesive binding the four pictures together created a stiff, durable mat.

I formed a desperate, suicidal plan.

"I know what is under the floor,"

I said, keeping my voice steady, staring directly into his sunken eyes.

The old man blinked, momentarily confused.

I grabbed the flashlight sitting on the edge of the metal desk. Without warning, I hurled the heavy aluminum cylinder directly at his face.

The killer flinched, pulling the rifle slightly off target to avoid the projectile. The flashlight grazed his shoulder, clattering loudly against the wall behind him. The high-lumen beam spun wildly across the room.

It bought me exactly one second.

I dropped to the floor, throwing my body flat against the photograph-carpet. I reached out with both hands and grabbed the thick, stiff edge of the loose photo mat near my boots.

I pulled my knees up to my chest, braced my boots against the solid leg of the metal desk, and violently ripped the massive sheet of interconnected photographs directly out from under the killer’s feet.

The sound of the adhesive tearing was incredibly loud. A massive strip of the floor covering, nearly three feet wide and stretching across the doorway, ripped away from the wood.

The killer lost his balance as the surface beneath him shifted. He stumbled forward, stepping entirely off the remaining photographs and planting both of his heavy boots directly onto the bare, rotting oak floorboards of the threshold.

He raised the rifle to fire, recovering his balance instantly.

Before his finger could depress the trigger, the wood beneath his boots violently rippled.

The solid oak dissolved into a fluid, chaotic surface.

Dozens of small, pale grey hands erupted simultaneously from the bare floorboards.

They shot upward with terrifying, coordinated speed. The necrotic, grey fingers grabbed the thick leather of his boots, the denim of his jeans, the fabric of his heavy canvas coat. The small hands possessed an impossible, overwhelming physical strength.

The killer screamed. It was a raw, primal sound of devastating terror. He dropped the hunting rifle, the weapon clattering uselessly onto the bare wood. He threw his arms down, trying to tear the small hands off his legs, but his fingers passed completely through their spectral flesh.

The hands gripped him with iron force and pulled downward.

His boots vanished through the floor. Then his knees. The wood seemed to effortlessly absorb his mass, pulling him straight down into the dirt foundation beneath the cabin.

He clawed frantically at the bare floorboards, his fingernails splintering the wood, screaming for mercy, begging the empty room to let him go. The small grey hands multiplied, hundreds of them reaching up through the timber, wrapping around his torso, his neck, his face.

They dragged his head through the solid floorboard. His final, muffled scream was instantly silenced as his mouth passed through the wood.

The grey hands sank back down into the oak.

The rippling wood smoothed out. The floorboards returned to their solid state. The heavy hunting rifle lay on the bare timber, the only remaining evidence that the killer had been standing there seconds before.

The deafening silence of the deep woods rushed back into the cabin, filling the space left by the screaming.

I lay flat on the floor, my chest heaving, my clothes soaked in cold sweat. I did not move for a long time. I stared at the bare patch of wood, terrified that the small hands would reach back up for me. But the wood remained still.

Eventually, I slowly pushed myself up onto my hands and knees. I remained strictly on the surface of the photographs, ensuring no part of my body crossed the perimeter of the bare wood. I reached out, and carefully backed out of the office.

I walked across the main room, tracing my exact path, stepping only on the staring faces of the children. I reached the front door, stepped out onto the porch, and walked into the night air.

I hiked back to my truck in a total, unthinking daze. I did not use the compass. I simply walked through the dark forest, driven by adrenaline-fueled survival instinct, until I hit the dirt logging road. I locked myself in the cab of my truck, turned the heater on full blast, and drove until the sun came up.

I have not contacted the authorities. I cannot bring the police to that cabin. If an investigative team walks into that room, they will step off the photographs. They will tear up the floor to search for the bodies. I cannot be responsible for exposing innocent people to the things waiting in the dirt beneath that foundation.

I am posting this here because the isolation of what I know is slowly destroying me.

I know he was a monster. I know the faces glued to the floor demanded justice, and I know he suffered a fate perfectly aligned with the suffering he caused. But the knowledge that I crossed the line, that I actively participated in dragging a screaming man into the solid earth, is a weight I do not know how to carry.

I am a murderer now, too. And I am terrified that one day, when I am standing on bare wood, a small, grey hand is going to reach up and grab my ankle.

I've been the police chief of Greyhaven for almost 11 years.

Long enough to watch the town shrinking. I recognize people by the sound of their trucks. I know which houses like to keep the lights on at night, and which ones can't because the bank finally got them.

Maybe that’s the only reason people survive up here. You know everyone enough to forget how alone you are.

The roads twist around the cliffs like they were carved by something scared of heights.
Half of the town disappears under the fog after sundown.
In winter the snow so deep the state plows stop pretending they care about us.

Greyhaven was once thriving thanks to logging. But then the mill was closed. And when you cut off the main form of income to a town, people have only a few possible choices, you either pretend everything can go back to normal, drink or leave.

I'm still here, but I've stopped pretending a while ago.

But even if the town was pushed to its limit, crime was never a real problem, nothing too bad ever happened here.

Then something lit up the sky.

At 2:13 of October 14th, the Jefferson's lodge in the woods north of Mercer Ridge exploded.

Usually when something explodes here it's either because of thunder, bored teenagers or an old transformer blowing.
But this was something new, I've never heard that sound before.

It shook my windows hard enough to knock down a framed photo off the kitchen wall.

No one in the house woke up, and honestly I didn't care either. I was halfway through my routine second whiskey when dispatch called.

"Chief?" It was Melanie, young girl. Smoked too much and talked too fast whenever she got nervous.

"We’ve got reports coming in from the north side. People saying there was some kind of blast in the forest. Fire maybe. We lost power for a second over by Miller Road."

"Call Warren and Elias," I said. "Tell the volunteers to get moving. I’m on my way."
I hung up before she answered.

I drowned some strange feelings with another drink and went to my car.

Outside, the cold hit hard enough to wake me up some.

By the time I arrived at the scene the volunteer trucks and some of the boys from the station were already there. Everyone arguing near the treeline, nobody looked eager to go farther in.

Warren stepped up when I got out. He was wearing pajama pants under his turnout coat.

"Jesus Christ," he muttered. "Thought maybe a plane went down."

"Did one?"

He shook his head. "No wreckage. No fire neither. But you need to see this."

The deeper we walked into the woods, the quieter it got. These forests are never silent, even at night you hear things.

Wind.
Branches.
Owls.
Insects.

But that stretch of woods sounded dead.

The ground changed about half a mile in. The moss and underbrush turned black beneath our boots. Like it was rotten.
Trees leaned away from the ridge in strange angles like they’d grown trying to escape something.

Warren kept sweeping his flashlight around. "You smell that?"
I did. A strange metallic smell filled the air, like coins burning.

Then we saw the crater. None of us said anything for a moment.
It had to be thirty feet across, maybe more.

The earth looked peeled open.

Mud and broken stone spread outward through the trees. The center was still smoking.

And inside it... There were bodies.
Four of them.

Elias puked at the sight, me and Warren went closer.

I was already afraid of whose house door I might have to knock.

The flashlight hit the skin of the closest one, it was pale, covered in his clothes' ashes. But he didn't seem to have any kind of bruise. I rolled him over to check for a pulse, but I stopped once I saw his eyes. They were almost as pale as his skin.

"Is he dead?" Elias asked. His voice shivered from the cold and the fear. He forgot for a moment how he's supposed to act.

"No. Tell the ambulance to move closer! I can still feel a pulse!" I shouted at him.

The volunteers and the boys gathered the four victims and helped put them on the ambulances.

I moved closer to the center of the crater, to see if there was someone under all that smoke.
The firefighters shouted at me to not go. That the heat would hurt me. But there was none, it was actually colder.

It felt like walking into deep water.

There was no one else, just a shadow burned into the stone.

After that, I went to Bell County Hospital to see if any of them had woken up.
I didn't realize it at the crater, maybe it was the adrenaline, or the fact that they didn't have any hair left. But I knew all four of them.

One was in my son's classroom. He was only seventeen years old.
The other two worked down at the local repair shop.
And then... there was Daniel.

Danny and I graduated together. Used to fish the river south of town before either of us got old enough to disappoint ourselves.
I remember staring at him on that bed trying to understand how a man I’d known most of my life ended up naked in a crater at two in the morning.

And why looking at him made me feel afraid. Not scared for him. Scared of him.

By sunrise, half the town already knew something had happened. Over here secrets move faster than weather.

I spent most of the morning at the hospital, if you can call it that. The building only had twelve beds and a generator older than I was.

Dr. Levin looked exhausted before he even examined the survivors.

"Their bodies make no sense," he told me quietly outside the poor boy's room.

"Low oxygen. Almost nonexistent heart activity. Body temperature below ninety. They should be clinically dead."

"But they aren’t." I said.

He hesitated. "No."

I looked through the room’s small window. "Radiation?" I asked.

"I don’t know." He rubbed his face tiredly. "Honestly? I don’t even know what tests to run first."

I nodded like I understood. Truth was, I didn’t understand a damn thing. And I hated that feeling.

Around noon I finally headed home. The mountain roads were wet with fog.
People stood outside stores talking quietly.

Everyone watched my truck pass.

I found my wife sitting at the kitchen table when I got back. "Emma called," she said.

Emma was our daughter. She went to college in Portland. Far enough away to stop speaking to me unless holidays forced it.

"What’d she want?"
"To know if we were okay."
I grabbed the whiskey bottle from the cabinet. My wife watched me a second.
"It’s noon, Thomas."
"Been a long night."
"Every night’s long lately."

I didn’t answer. She was used to that.

Then dispatch called again. "Chief... we just got a call from Miller Road."

"About what?"

A pause. Then: "Something killed the Harris dogs."

I closed my eyes. "Coyotes?"

"No, sir." Another pause.

"The owner says they tore their own eyes out."

The strange feelings I had the night before, just after dispatch called, came back.
Worse this time.
Like pressure behind my ribs.

Outside the kitchen window, the treeline stood dark against the mountain fog.
For just a second, I had the strange feeling something was standing between them.
Watching the house.
I told myself it was exhaustion.
Then I reached for the bottle again.

But before I could pour myself another drink, the phone rang again.
“If this is about those dogs again, I swear to God I’m quitting.”

“No sir. It’s the hospital.”

That pressure behind my ribs tightened again.

“What happened?”

A pause. “They woke up.”

"Got it, I'll head out."

I reached the hospital and tried to not hit the crowd that formed around the entrance.

People smoking.
Talking quietly.
Watching the entrance.

Nobody sleeps when fear gets loose.

Dr. Levin met me near the front desk. He looked worse than before. Pale. Sweating.

“They woke up for about thirty seconds,” he said.

“And?”

“They asked for you.”

I stopped walking.

“What do you mean they asked for me?”

“They kept repeating your name.”

Something in the way he said it made me uncomfortable.

I followed him down the hallway toward the rooms. The hospital suddenly felt colder than before. Not physically colder. Quieter.

The fluorescent lights buzzed overhead. Somewhere farther down the hall, a machine beeped steadily.

Dr. Levin slowed outside Danny’s room.

“I thought maybe they knew something about the explosion,” he said quietly. “But when the nurses tried talking to them, they just kept apologizing.”

“For what?”

He shook his head. “I don’t think they knew.”

He opened the door. The room smelled faintly of wet dirt.

The three older men were lying exactly where I’d left them earlier. Motionless beneath the hospital sheets.

Danny closest to the window. I stepped farther inside.

That’s when I noticed the mud. Not much. Just a thin trail of dark footprints beside Danny’s bed.

Bare human feet. Leading toward the window. I stared at them for a second.

Then at the glass.

Condensation covered most of it, but part of the fog had been smeared away from the inside.

Like someone had stood there looking out.

“Do these windows open?” I asked.

Dr. Levin frowned. “No.”

Something moved behind me.

I turned slowly toward the beds.

All three men were awake. Staring at me.

Blank white eyes fixed directly on mine.

I felt my hands trembling before I realized I’d started clenching them. I tried to hide it.

When he spoke, the other two spoke with him.

Perfectly together.

Soft enough I almost didn’t hear it.

“We’re sorry, Thomas.”

I couldn’t move. None of them blinked.
Then Danny whispered:
“It’s afraid.”

And all three of them laid back down at the exact same time. By the time the nurses rushed in, they were motionless again. The monitors barely registered heartbeats.

Dr. Levin kept talking to me. I don’t remember what he said.

I was still staring at the mud beside Danny’s bed.

Because there were only footprints leading to the window.

None coming back.

At the time, I still thought whatever happened at Mercer Ridge had ended in that crater.
I didn’t understand yet that something had followed those men back into Greyhaven.

My pants kept ripping at work, and I don’t know what to do anymore.

At first I thought it was just bad luck.
Then I thought it was bad pants.
Now I’m pretty sure it’s my legs doing something behind my back, and I don’t mean that metaphorically in a “stress affects posture” way.
I mean it in a “my lower body might be forming opinions” way.

I work in corporate auditing. The kind of job where you slowly realize no one actually knows what they’re doing, they’re just typing confidently in different directions.

And let me tell you, I was once aggressively average.
32 years old. Divorced once. Mildly overweight in the way office workers become when their primary exercise is rushing to mute themselves on Zoom, or rage-baiting people on Reddit.

Nothing paranormal should’ve happened to me.

Everythings started on a Tuesday morning.
I bent down under my desk to plug in my charger.

RRRIPP

Loud enough that the entire row of desks paused.

The intern dropped her yogurt.
Jen from accounting whispered, “Jesus Christ.”

Cold air hit me in a way that made me briefly understand what it feels like when dignity leaves your body.

Huge split down the back seam.
I remember staring at it thinking:

“Okay. Maybe lay off fast food”

That was my first mistake.

The second mistake was assuming I was alone in making decisions about my own body.
Because after that, it became routine.

Every week:

Rip pants.
Humiliate self.
Apologize to coworkers.
Buy new pants.
Repeat.

RRRRRIP.

The intern drops her yogurt.
Jen from accounting whispers“Jesus Christ.”

Same rhythm. Same reaction. Like the office had turned my lower half into workplace hazard.

And somewhere in the middle of all that, my life split cleanly into two eras:

Before the rip.
After the rip.

There was never going to be a third phase.
Average people like me don’t get transformation phases.
We get one weird incident and spend the rest of our lives adjusting our postures around it.

If couldn’t get any worse,

Jen from accounting stopped looking at my lower body entirely. Not out of politeness. It was like her brain refused to register that area of space anymore.
As if she didn’t acknowledge my legs, they couldn’t acknowledge her back.

Honestly? I respected her strategy.
I wish I had that option.
Because I still had to feel them.

That’s the part I can’t explain in a way that doesn’t sound like am going insane.
It stopped feeling like pants ripping.
It started feeling like something underneath the fabric, the blood & bones, was testing boundaries.
Like my legs weren’t fully participating in my decisions anymore.

At first it was small.
A tightness in the thighs before each rip.
Like muscles flexing without asking permission.
Then came the sounds.

Soft ones.

tk.

Like sharp fingernails tapping from inside fabric.
I stopped moving when I felt it.
Which didn’t help.
Because the rips still happened.

They just felt more…deliberate.
Like something inside was waiting for witnesses.

One afternoon I was sitting at my desk when I felt both thighs shift slightly.

Not externally, but internally, purposely.

Like my legs had adjusted their posture without consulting the rest of me.
I whispered, “Nope.”

A coworker walked by and said, “You talking to yourself?”
I said, “No, just negotiating.”

They did not follow up.
Smart person.

Then the next rip happened during a budget meeting.

Because of course it did.

Whatever is happening to my legs has excellent comedic timing and definitely no regard for my career trajectory.,or my currently non-existent dignity.
I bent down to plug in my laptop.

There was a pause.
Too long.

The kind of pause where everyone already knows what’s coming but nobody wants to be the first one to acknowledge that my lower half is about to declare independence again.

Then-

RRRRRIP.

The intern drops her yogurt.
Jen from accounting whispers, “Jesus Christ.”

Huge split down the back seam.

But this time… i felt something new.
Not shame.
Not embarrassment.
But a profound realization .

Like my legs were listening.

Like they were aware people were watching.
I stood up slowly.
Chair scraped.

my left knee bent a fraction too late compared to my right.

Not much.
Just enough to notice.

Like two people disagreeing on how to stand in the same body.

Melissa from HR called me in later.
She looked exhausted in the way only HR can look.Then she asked the question that still bothers me:

“Have you considered… larger pants?”

I nodded.

Because what do you even say to that?

“No, my legs are becoming self-aware, but I’ll try more stretchable fabric”?

RRRRRIP.

The intern drops yogurt.
Jen from accounting whispers “Jesus Christ.”

And Jen still refused to look at my lower half.

But the weird part?
The silence before it happens.

Because now there’s always a moment where my legs feel… awake.
Like they’re waiting.
Listening.
Agreeing on something without me.

And I’ve started catching myself doing things I didn’t fully decide to do.

Standing slightly differently.
Walking faster toward exits I didn’t intend to choose.

Once I caught my reflection in the office glass and my left leg was a half-step ahead of my right, like it was trying to leave early.

I said, very quietly:

“Guys… we’re at work.”

And I swear,

just for a second-

the fabric around my thighs tightened like someone inside was trying not to laugh.

I’m not typically one to boast about my religious compliance. That’s something that never really sat right with me. People who made Church and religion a personality trait. It never felt authentic, in my opinion. We’re all humans, and what are humans if not flawed? That’s pretty much what makes up the whole “good and evil,” “light and dark” concept.

It’s something I’ve thought about deeply on a multitude of occasions. Why proclaim your supposed love for whatever God you worship as though you were trying to convince others to be as devoted as you? It just seems like compensation. Like you’re burying some sort of underlying darkness while masquerading as a saint.

I guess that doesn’t really matter now, though. Not after what I found. Because I can tell you, with all of the conviction I can muster, I was a devout believer before this. Going to church twice a week, daily prayer, trying to live accordingly. It just feels pointless now.

I come from a small town in Northern Georgia. Because, of course, I do, right? Where better place for this occult bullshit to happen other than in a rural small town in the South? It’s practically textbook. Unfortunately, you don’t realize you’re in a horror scene when the stage is set where you lay your head at night.

That’s why I think this is all so shocking. Everything was just so normal to me. Kids went to school, adults went to work, and I figured that the reason Church was so packed every Wednesday and Sunday was because we were such a small community. Like it was essentially just a tradition to go rather than a moral obligation.

Our population has floated around 600 people since I’ve been alive, and every week there’s about that many people in the pews. Paying their offerings. Cheering when the pastor preached of revival. Embracing one another.

I was always a loner. I just didn’t like crowds. I don’t know what else to say. That’s why I always found myself sitting in the back, making myself small while everyone else stood and swayed and sang and did everything that you’d expect out of a group of churchgoers.

In those lonely moments, it was like my brain would be entirely set on observation. I’d be completely tuned out for the music or the pre-sermon prayer montages because all I could focus on were the people around me. The way they all smiled and laughed and loved. It was honestly picturesque.

Me being me, of course, I’d look too far into these things. That’s when I started noticing some things. Like how a lot of those smiles looked manufactured. How the laughs sounded too forced. It was like an act being put on.

More than anything, though, I noticed just how big the bills being placed in those donation baskets were. Fifties, hundreds, sometimes even both.

And I remember, I remember thinking to myself, you know, like, just, just “wow,” you know? “It just feels like they’re trying to overcompensate.”

And what’s funny to me, looking back now, is that it was so obvious. It was so glaringly clear that I was right that I’m literally kicking myself for not trusting my gut back then.

See, I never really had money. I didn’t have the fancy suits or the luxury cars that my peers in the church had. But I was still handing over my last twenty. I was still dropping my last ten dollars into that basket. I was listening intently when the preacher spoke. I was reacting emotionally when he struck a chord. But what I was doing that not a single other person in town had done was staying at the Church after the sermon ended.

I wanted a relationship with God. I wanted to feel connected to him in his own home without the social pressures. I’d spend hours there just praying. Just me and God. Well, mostly just me and God. The preacher has caught me lurking a couple of times.

The strangest thing to me was that each time he found me, he wore an expression that told me I wasn’t supposed to still be there. A preacher acting like a man can’t pray in a Church. Like, do you see what I mean?

Even if he was being kind, even if he was blatantly telling me to take all the time I needed, there was still that underlying tension.

It wasn’t long before they put the caution tape up. Crossed out a door that I probably wouldn’t have ever even noticed had they not put the tape up, along with a sign that simply read “Do Not Enter.”

Now, I’m not one to go against the orders of a bluntly worded sign, but I’m also not one to ignore my curiosity for very long. So when that week’s Sunday service started and the ushers stood like guards in front of the taped-off door, it kinda tipped my curiosity over the edge.

I hid in the bathroom for about two hours after service had ended. By that time, even the ushers had gone home, leaving me to meander the Church as I pleased.

I peered out of the bathroom, scanning the room briefly before stepping out slowly. I must’ve made myself as light as a feather as I tiptoed toward the taped-off door because not a single floorboard squeaked throughout the entire 200-year-old building.

I got to the door and held my breath. A chill ran down my spine, and my hair stood on end as I stared at it. There was just this kind of energy radiating from beyond its hinges. It was enough to freeze me in place without even opening it.

I had to take a series of deep breaths before placing my hand at the edge of one of the strips. However, just as I went to pull the tape from the frame, a hand fell upon my shoulder. A hand so cold that I could feel it through the fabric of my T-shirt.

“Now, now,” croaked the preacher. “What’s a fine young man like yourself doing trying to break into a closed-off part of my Church?”

I felt his grip tighten as I audibly gulped.

“No, no, I didn’t. I mean, I wasn’t. I didn’t mean to…”

The man laughed at me, chuckling softly as his grip loosened a little.

“Oh, I have no doubt. You don’t strike me as the rule-breaking type. Listen, I’ll tell ya what. You’re free to stay here as long as you’d like. You can pray to the sky, cry your eyes out, beg for forgiveness, whatever. But listen to me, son.”

His eyes narrowed, and his grip tightened once again.

“You cannot go in there, you understand? Sign’s there for a reason.”

I shook my head slowly as I stared at him wide-eyed.

“Now, since you’ve proven that I gotta go out of my way to keep an eye on you, me and you are gonna sit here together. Like I said, you’re free to do all the worshipping and dilly-dallying you please. Just wrap it up quickly. I got a wife to go home to.”

I didn’t stay for long after that. I could feel his eyes burning into the back of my head as he sat in the row behind me, and the sheer discomfort was enough to have me walking out the door after about five minutes.

I went home that day with a newfound purpose. This went beyond curiosity. This was now about proof. Proof that something was happening in that Church, and I was going to be the one to find it.

Unfortunately, the door was under nearly constant supervision in the weeks that followed. The preacher, the ushers, hell, even random townsfolk were left to guard the door.

For a while, it all seemed hopeless. I’d blown my one shot, and now I was almost certainly not gonna get a new one.

I just had to observe and wait patiently. Wait patiently while the people from town put on those fake smiles, sang those emotionless lyrics, worshipped for two hours a week in their expensive-looking suits and dresses while donating top dollar to make up for their lack of conviction and authenticity.

After weeks of waiting, my patience finally paid off. It’s almost ironic. A snowstorm, a true act of God, is what gave me my opening.

I knew it was coming. It’s all everyone was talking about. A “snowpocalypse” that was pretty much guaranteed to shut down roads and knock out electricity. And, would you believe it? It was all supposed to start late Sunday night.

I camped out that Sunday. Remained hidden until I personally watched as the first snowflake fell and was followed by a million others. I was completely sure I was alone in the building.

I approached the door and was greeted by that same radiating energy that told me I was about to find something horrible. I didn’t bother taking the time to delicately remove the tape. I ripped it from the frame before gripping the door handle.

Locked. Of course.

I kicked once. Twice. Three times before the wood splintered and the door slowly creaked open, revealing stairs leading into what I could now see was a basement. There was an ominous blue glow at the bottom.

Step by step, I crept down the stairs, my anxiety building with each breath.

As I got closer, I could hear what sounded like the whir of a dozen fans. Just this low buzzing noise that gradually became clearer and clearer.

The first thing I noticed when I reached the bottom was just how cold it was. The concrete floors and walls were enough to make the frigid air bite at me, and I shivered as it did so.

What I found down there wasn’t some monster. Wasn’t some demon ghost in the basement. No, what I found in the basement of that Church was far worse than any monster ever could be. Because what I found were computers. Rows upon rows of monitors. Archives.

Suddenly, it made sense to me. It made sense why I felt so secluded. Why my peers were so much better off than I was. Why the preacher sported a gold Rolex every week.

Spreadsheets full of names. Recorded confessions. Photographic evidence. Full-blown blackmail. And it was on everybody.

From simple misdemeanors all the way to full-blown felony homicide. Each name on the spreadsheet had a number attached. Upon further inspection, it became evident what the numbers meant.

It was how much debt they had accrued. These people weren’t donating for the love of God. They were donating to keep the Church silent.

I scanned the pages and found the one name I had in mind. Thomas O’Brian. The Church’s biggest donor. This man had kidnapped and held his family hostage during a six-hour standoff with police. Apparently, his reasoning was because his wife wanted a divorce because of some alleged infidelity with one of Thomas’ employees, and O’Brian simply was not having it. It ended with his wife taking a gunshot to the head before the SWAT team busted his door down and took him into custody. He was set to serve 25 to life before the Church stepped in and had a conversation with him. After that, nothing. His records were wiped clean, and everyone in town pretended like nothing even happened.

I continued scanning and found another name. Amber Winslow. Another big donor. She showed up every Sunday in a nice new Mercedes and would frequently leave two hundreds in the donation basket. Her crimes included money laundering, petty larceny, and possession of a firearm.

Nothing could’ve prepared me for the preacher’s spreadsheet. The man whose words moved me to tears. The man who taught me to have faith and to turn the other cheek.

God, I feel so stupid.

This man had been charged with sexual assault, assault and battery, kidnapping, torture, interfering with government operations, and, to top it all off, sexual trafficking. He only moved to town after serving his time, and the debt attached to his name was still above seven digits.

That’s who I had preaching to me every Wednesday and Sunday. And now here he was. The ring leader in this blackmail operation. Who else could it be? This guy owned the fucking building.

As these thoughts circulated in my head, out of nowhere, the room went pitch black as all the power shut down.

“Fuckin’ snowstorm,” I thought aloud, silently hoping that it didn’t crash the servers.

I went to take my phone out of my pocket, and that’s when I heard footsteps slowly descending down the stairs.

I froze. I held my breath. I fought desperately to see in the darkness.

The footsteps got closer and closer and closer until stopping right in front of me. I could only make out a silhouette as I stood there petrified.

Suddenly, a firm hand landed on my shoulder, and I felt a scream building in my throat before it was cut off by another hand across my mouth.

“I thought I told you not to come down here, son?”