My boyfriend became cold overnight
I (F21) have been with my boyfriend (M27) for a year. Everything was fine, I knew about his illness from the beginning and tried to help him. However, lately he has been getting cold more and more often. Like yesterday, for example. He came back from work, didn't say hello, didn't give me a kiss, and is ignoring me. It hurts me and I don't know if it's something wrong that I could have done or if it could be one of his episodes. I'm afraid that if I start talking to him, he might get angry or take his anger out on me.
I have no idea what to do. I left the house to give him time to himself. Usually when he's like this, I stay silent, trying to be a ghost in our own home. Practically hiding away so as not to give him a reason to get angry, but it's starting to hurt me more and more. Sometimes I feel like he doesn't care about me. When I have my own emotional breakdowns (I have depression and social anxiety) he doesn't care. He doesn't pay attention to me, only focusing on games and asking me only when he wants something. Today he ignored me too, he didn't care that I had another nervous breakdown during which I left the house alone late in the evening. He wrote 'where are you going? The shops are closed' (where I live, shops all close at 8 p.m., I left after 9 p.m.)
I really love him and I want to plan a life with him, but I'm afraid that if it continues like this, I won't be able to handle it mentally.