u/Delt0ro4

I want to preface this by saying that I've gone to therapy. I've tried medication. Exercise. meditation. Subliminals. ANYTHING that I could find to address issues with my self worth and my connection to money and resources. Results always seem short lived and I'm tired. I struggled as a child and into adulthood before I had any knowledge of this placements influence on my life.

I'm not necessarily asking for career advice. Just maybe a point in the right direction. I'm exhausted of throwing shit at a wall hoping it sticks. 9-5s are extremely draining to me. (I'm sure most people feel this way) But I seem to have a lower tolerance for it to the point where I've experienced anxiety and chronic panic attacks.

I have attempted to start businesses but there's always financial interference, family interference, or it's due to my own impatience because I'm often in desperate situations where my sense of stability is being threatened and so when I don't see results fast enough, I move on because I simply can't afford for it not to WORK.

I always find myself at the whim of someone else, needing their help; often family or friends who all seem to be very controlling or close minded.

Ultimately, I find myself questioning the meaning of fighting so hard when in the grand scheme of things, I don't think life really matters. I desire financial freedom. I'm tired of spending every waking moment fighting for crumbs and couch hopping. I want a life on my own terms but I constantly feel like I'm crawling myself out of hole made of quicksand. How or in what way can I make this placement work in my favor? Is there anything I can do or am I destined to be destitute?

I understand Saturn is supposed to be a planet of discipline and hard work and it typically shows rewards later in life. But life is not promised to anyone so that doesn't comfort me. I want enjoy my life NOW. I want to afford to live TODAY. Is there anything that can quicken that process?

I want to preface this by saying that I've gone to therapy. I've tried medication. Exercise. meditation. Subliminals. ANYTHING that I could find to address issues with my self worth and my connection to money and resources. Results always seem short lived and I'm tired. I struggled as a child and into adulthood before I had any knowledge of this placements influence on my life.

I'm not necessarily asking for career advice. Just maybe a point in the right direction. I'm exhausted of throwing shit at a wall hoping it sticks. 9-5s are extremely draining to me. (I'm sure most people feel this way) But I seem to have a lower tolerance for it to the point where I've experienced anxiety and chronic panic attacks.

I have attempted to start businesses but there's always financial interference, family interference, or it's due to my own impatience because I'm often in desperate situations where my sense of stability is being threatened and so when I don't see results fast enough, I move on because I simply can't afford for it not to WORK.

I always find myself at the whim of someone else, needing their help; often family or friends who all seem to be very controlling or close minded.

Ultimately, I find myself questioning the meaning of fighting so hard when in the grand scheme of things, I don't think life really matters. I desire financial freedom. I'm tired of spending every waking moment fighting for crumbs and couch hopping. I want a life on my own terms but I constantly feel like I'm crawling myself out of hole made of quicksand. How or in what way can I make this placement work in my favor? Is there anything I can do or am I destined to be destitute?