It's hard for me to open up about my child abuse to normal people I know in my day to day life. I have had to say the whole song and dance and relive my trauma with every therapist I get thrown at. I just want some emotional healing for myself but also a safe place to get treatment for my injuries. I feel so awkward having to explain "oh yeah my fingers are all disfigured and crooked because my parents used to bend them backwards to interrogate me like a Russian mob boss over simple blunders I made as a child. What are your recommended care for said old injuries?".
It's embarrassing. I have to deal with everything ive been through now as an adult and im expected to be normal about it. I just want to not feel aches and pains anymore and I would like to slowly heal the mental damage along with the physical.