u/Delicious_Today_8989

i’m just excited & wanna share some things :D so i came out of my first (&very horrible) relationship last year and was lowkey excited to have the freedom/option to be able to experience more things with women, as i’ve only ever made out with them but have had a big wish to have sex with women since i was a kid and never got to it.. but i was always super scared, anxious and very passive and somehow only men asked to have sex with me hah.
and as my anxious ass is now sober, i wasn’t expecting for me to meet anyone new at all in the near future BUT somehow i’m currently waiting for a reply from a woman i’m crushing on.. what the fuck :D we’ve only hung out two times and exchanged some messages in between and the last time she saw me she said i keep looking better each time. AHHH. like i know it probably didn’t mean anything, i don’t even know if she’s into me but i’m having a hard time dealing with my feelings, even if it’s just a little crush. it’s also the first time i’ve had a crush on anyone and actually did something with it/not run away from it & i gotta say i’m actually kinda proud of myself.
i’m a bit scared posting this, i don’t even know what i want or expect but i wanted to share this with this community that feels so fucking welcoming <3
(also, i’m high, slept shitty and english isn’t my first language so sorry for mistakes and i hope what i wrote is understandable!!)