u/Delicious_Cookie4111

So iv been kinda depressed for the last 3 months or so or at least i guess so? And there are always these thoughts in my head what if i would all just end t and then i just make huge scenarios out of it, i think about who would do what, who would attend my funeral, who would cry over me, who would be sad. And i dont really know why because like i dont really have the feeling that except my parents anyone would care. But making up thede scenarios gives me hope and lets me think ohh that friend would probaly be sad. But then i ask myself and what if not? I would never do it but the constant thought about it is there. So i dont really know if anyone can like relate to that but if yes i would be happy to read something from you