u/DeliciousRats4Sale

I am 31 and diagnosed with MS. I have always feared becoming immobile and losing the love of my life because I cannot function. I recently got a herniated disk in my spine and I'm bed ridden waiting for surgery. I feel like I'm exactly as I fear I might be at the moment. I am deeply struggling accepting help and I feel extremely depressed. I don't know what to do, I keep crying all the time and rotting in my bed. I know this is temporary, but it's like I got a trial run for my worst fear. How can I cope? I am afraid it might ruin how people perceive me. Please advise