u/Delicious-Maize-7771

I pretty much qualify for “recovered” because I’m in the healthy weight zone and gained >ten pounds< from my underweight body. I was so excited to recover at the beginning and was very happy with the muscle I was building but I got to my study abroad location and indulged, as I should, but it made a difference on my body. I gained like >15 pounds< I’ve lost 7 ish since then but I’m extremely depressed and obsessed with looking at pictures of my sick body and convincing myself life was better. Even though I felt like death, at least I was skinny. I’m just having trouble here and I don’t even come on this sub anymore bc I’m not UW so I just feel like I don’t qualify and it’s stupid for me to even post here