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I miss the deep ache of whatever state I was in as my loved one’s caretaker in his last days. I miss the unfathomable grief I felt after he was gone. I miss feeling the love and seeing him in signs everywhere. It’s been 1.5 yr now and I don’t think of him as often. I’m grateful the pain has subsided in ways, but I feel attached to the trauma of everything in that time. Can I go back? Do I even want to? Not really. Just an unexplainable space in my heart deeper than anything surface level.