I want to die.
I’m 16, and have been dating someone about a week. I had a bad relationship in the past which destroyed my trust. With my current girlfriend i’m always overthinking, acting fucking stupid dumping my problems on her, and i got attached. She says she’ll help me build trust or that it’ll get better but i doubt that. She deserves better. I don’t want to be alive anymore. I wish i just never existed in the first place. I fucking hate myself. I have a fear of abandonment, and if she leaves me i think i’d just kill myself at that point. I was depressed for 4 years before about the start of this year, but now it’s back. I honestly just want to be dead, and i think everyone would just be better without me in their lives. I’ll probably end up hurting the people i love or doing something to make them hate me. I don’t see life worth living anymore, so i just want it to be over already.