u/Defiant-Dragonfly712 — reddlx

my mom is my best friend. i'm still young, so i do live with her, and we would do everything together. i'm talking mall trips, crafts, she takes me out to eat, and i tell her all about my life.

i was logged into chatgpt when i ran out of free uploads and had to log in to my mom's account to upload some images. when i logged in, it opened up a chat called "is karma real or not?" and the first thing i saw was "i hate my daughter." i was so shocked, i know i shouldnt have but i scrolled through her conversations with chatgpt for the past ~3 months and it's all been about how much she hates me. she has told the ai that I am a b*tch, and what really hurt me was when she said "I act like I am nice to her but I really hate her". she also asked chatgpt "is it normal for me to be excited for my daughter to graduate and leave my house? i can't wait for the b*tch to leave."

the main thing she has said is that she hates me and loves my brother more. my brother is a type 1 diabetic, and she asked chatgpt why "such a nice kid had to be riddled with this illness while a mean one is so lucky" (referring to me being lucky)

i am so confused and hurt. i have been re-reading the chats for the last two days and just pondering and crying, wondering why she is venting to an ai chatbot about me and wondering what i did wrong. it feels like my life has been a lie and i just wonder how long she's hated me for.

and what's crazy to me is that these messages haven't been sent to the ai after we got into a fight. it's just day to day hatred which i seriously don't understand. i have always tried my best to be a good child, and we never really get into serious conflicts. when we do fight, i always say sorry because i do love her. it just makes me sad that i can't even be loved by my own mom.

yesterday we got in a small conflict over something silly. i would have apologized by now but these messages just hurt me so much so i haven't been talking to her at all. but she keeps coming up to me, hugging me, asking why i don't love her. and i'm just confused - why would you treat me like that after you admitted how you felt (to a robot, but still).

i also don't have a good relationship with my dad, so my mom was my rock. but now i don't have a good relationship with either parent, i guess.

maybe she just likes boys better. i don't know. but if you don't like me, then act like you don't like me. stop acting like a teenager and being hot and cold with your feelings.

but whatever. i guess this is just a reality that i have to get used to. just a sucky way to find out.