Seeking support, advice, encouragement to continue...
I have been T1 since I was 8, diagnosed Nov 2004, so approaching 22 years. HbA1C around 52. Dx ADHD April 2025. Suspected Level 1 ASD also. Depression, anxiety, hypermobility, and psoriasis.
Starting stimulant ADHD meds in July. Have tried 2 different SSRIs in the past, both gave me nasty side affects that just made things worse in other ways.
UK based, but currently in Brazil travelling.
I am so, so, so tired and done with this. All of my health stuff combines into misery and confusion so often. I feel ill in one form or another very often. I just want a day off, just even one day. I feel like I'm walking in a dark room and constantly tripping over stuff. I regularly want to throw my omnipod phone at a wall. Every time it goes off at the moment it fills me with rage and sadness. And I'm in Brazil, in relative paradise, and I still can't be reliably happy or have energy reliably.
And I'm very aware I'm one of the lucky ones to have this equipment provided free on the NHS.
I've never been this close to wanting to give up on it all.
Does anyone share some of the same health things beyond T1? I feel so lonely with it despite having a support network and a loving partner.
I don't even know what to say... I'm just done and pretending I'm not is getting harder.
What the fuck am I supposed to do?